Brooks book of rants

Breakups suck ass

Welcome to the first chapter thingy of my diary hiya how are you?
Basically two years ago when I was 16
I had a boyfriend named Zack. Zack was a horny fuck who started saying I love you after dating for 5 days like honey no, anyhoo so while I was dating Zack I invited him to my friend Jess's house cause she was having this big open house/ party. This party was going on for a whole week and my boyfriend Zack was coming for the weekend. When I came Thursday I met this asshole brad at first I totally didn't fuck with him like at all but eventually later that night we started talking and I realized he was a pretty cool human being (ugh). Anyway the weekend finally came and my boyfriend Zack showed up. So that night I got trashed because why not and I realized I really was not interested in Zack and I tried breaking things off with him nicely but he just kept telling me "it's not over until I say it's over" blah blah blah so I got even more trashed and I said it much rougher "Zack I don't want to be with you byeeee" so I walked out of the room and didn't see him the rest of the night. I went to bed that night (I was staying at jesses house and so was he) I wake up at like 3 am with his hands in my pants and I freak out cause I never let him do that to me before like wtf. Anyway the cops ended up coming and I went home. In the morning I came back and Zack was there and he comes to me saying like " you didn't really breakup with me last night" um honey I'm pretty positive I did... anyhoo than brad comes and me and brad binge watch the purge movies together and later that night me and brad kissed (I promise I'm not a whore and that was my first time having two guys in even a year). Months went by and finally me and brad were official we had the greatest relationship. He treated me like Beyoncé I tell ya. Anyhoo all good things come to an end. A week before our relationship ended I went to my best friend Sophia and I told her brad has been acting off like he's not that interested and she told me I was crazy (oh boy was she wrong) so I couldn't believe her I had to ask him cause I needed to know. I'm one of those ppl when I have a feeling it's usually right and I am better at taking strangers advice than my friends. Anyway brad told me he loves me and nothing is wrong he's just been busy, as a good girlfriend I know he sucks at school and he has nothing to worry about so I knew that was bull but I hoped maybe this feeling will go away. That weekend we saw each other and went to the park with all my friends and usually he shows me so much attention like he includes into all conversations and he's always looking at me and smiling and holding my hand or even putting his arm around me but he didn't look in my direction and went off to talk to his boys and at this point I knew it's over. So I got up and asked him if we could talk (also normally he'd be like ya let's go like any normal boyfriend but instead he said um why I'm with my boys) (ps I forgot to mention he never had a girlfriend before I was his first so obviously he hasn't dumped anyone before) so finally he gets up and goes with me. The first thing I said is "I know" and he didn't bother hiding it " I'm sorry can we take a break" my little smart 16 year old self was a genius I tell you! I SAID " breaks don't work" facts 16 year old brook! And so we ended things and I walked away trying not to cry in front of him. I ran home and I really remember myself not being able to walk or see it's like I was also in pain physically. I got home and my dad noticed the second I walked in something is wrong my dad and my mom sat me down and gave me all the hugs I could ask for and than my dad said the best thing to me " brook a surgeon takes something out of a patient to make them feel better even tho healing hurts like a Bitch after you have healed you feel better than before and right now god is the surgeon and you are the patient he's taking brad out of your life to help you and in a couple months you will feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders" that night I slept like a baby. My dad is normally the most immature person ever always making jokes but that was the one night he was beyond serious and i felt so greatful to have my family with me. Getting over brad took 4 months and it hurts so bad everyday I missed school so much and I couldn't be around my old friends cause he would be everywhere but the story doesn't end here who knew brad would break my heart two years later.... breakups suck.

Hey guys hope it's good also if you all want to know what happened the second time let me know. Also sorry I don't really remember most of our old relationship it was two years ago and that's just a big part of me. The more recent stories will have more information. Imma try to update once a day maybe twice depends if ppl actually read this😂. Honestly I should so add pictures of him if I do the second breakup🤣