Kyle Rencel M. Visaya, I miss you so much, candy… You're still having a part in my heart, in my life. Thank you for being part of it, I love you.
This is for you…
Unconscious Feelings
I woke up in the morning, a smile automatically curve in my lips.
I saw you smiling at me, in my bedside table...
Your eyes' full of love and tenderness...
But when I turned my glance beside me...
I realize it is just your photo
Afternoon, I knock at your house door,
Hoping that you are the one to open it and greet me...
But your elder sister did it
Fake smile, I am disappointed
I shouldn’t be, but I am.
Still hoping for miracle...
I open your room...
I saw you sitting in your bed, doing some school projects.
You gave me a sweet smile,
I gave you mine too.
I step closer and open your cabinet...
I nearly cry when I saw a familiar thing...
I gave it in our second anniversary
I thought you lost it...
I felt you hug me from the back...
I want to face and hug you back
But my body cannot move
I do not know why my tears starting to fall...
I saw our picture together...
Happy, and love for each other was visible.
I hug you tight but instead I hug my own self
I look around, only to find out that me, just me, only me...in your room
Your mom hugs me, suddenly...
I saw you waving your hand and you said 'hello
I answered back 'I love you...
You walk away, I follow you...
You stop in a familiar spot.
You smiled, a weak smile...
I want to hug you, you're close but I think you're far from me...
I look at my hand...
Three roses...
I look at the spot where I stand.
Suddenly, I felt my knee down to the ground and starting to sob...
I saw your birthdate, and below was the day when you left me...
Your sister and your mother hug me from behind
I realize that in reality, I am in a memorial park...
It's your date of death...
--- Your 'Angel
Time to let it go
It has been a year when you left me this way.
I already accept you are gone and never coming back whatever I do.
Months before a year without you…
Night full of sadness, cries and pains.
All memories together...
I don’t know, what a reminisced!
I ask them why?
Then just stared at me and mouthed the words move on...
Shock? No, I am not...
I know, it's time to move on
I decided to go away...
Far from the place, that reminds me of our days.
Things that we shared when were together, when you’re here with me...
Maybe after that, I am ready to let go of you...
For now? I want to say "I am still waiting..."
--- Your 'Angel
