For you

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Kyle Rencel M. Visaya, I miss you so much, candy… You're still having a part in my heart, in my life. Thank you for being part of it, I love you.

This is for you…

 Unconscious Feelings

I woke up in the morning, a smile automatically curve in my lips.

I saw you smiling at me, in my bedside table...

Your eyes' full of love and tenderness...

But when I turned my glance beside me...

I realize it is just your photo

Afternoon, I knock at your house door,

Hoping that you are the one to open it and greet me...

But your elder sister did it

Fake smile, I am disappointed

I shouldn’t  be, but I am.

Still hoping for miracle...

I open your room...

I saw you sitting in your bed, doing some school projects.

You gave me a sweet smile,

I gave you mine too.

I step closer and open your cabinet...

I nearly cry when I saw a familiar thing...

I gave it in our second anniversary

I thought you lost it...

I felt you hug me from the back...

I want to face and hug you back

But my body cannot move

I do not know why my tears starting to fall...

I saw our picture together...

Happy, and love for each other was visible.

I hug you tight but instead I hug my own self

I look around, only to find out that me, just me, only me...in your room

Your mom hugs me, suddenly...

I saw you waving your hand and you said 'hello

I answered back 'I love you...

You walk away, I follow you...

You stop in a familiar spot.

You smiled, a weak smile...

I want to hug you, you're close but I think you're far from me...

I look at my hand...

Three roses...

I look at the spot where I stand.

Suddenly, I felt my knee down to the ground and starting to sob...

I saw your birthdate, and below was the day when you left me...

Your sister and your mother hug me from behind

I realize that in reality, I am in a memorial park...

It's your date of death...

--- Your 'Angel

            Time to let it go

It has been a year when you left me this way.

I already accept you are gone and never coming back whatever I do.

Months before a year without you…

Night full of sadness, cries and pains.

All memories together...

I don’t know, what a reminisced!

I ask them why?

Then just stared at me and mouthed the words move on...

Shock? No, I am not...

I know, it's time to move on

I decided to go away...

Far from the place, that reminds me of our days.

Things that we shared when were together, when you’re here with me...

Maybe after that, I am ready to let go of you...

For now? I want to say "I am still waiting..."

                                                            --- Your 'Angel

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