I Wanna Know What Love Is (TFF Fanfiction)

Chapter 16

In the live room, Roland, Curt and Ian sat on stools, and talked about the good old days, until Ian changed the subject.

" So, Roland, when are you going to tell Scarlet your feelings about her? " he smirked.

Roland, however, signed and looked down. " Never. "

Both Ian and Curt narrowed their eyes at him. " What do you mean? "

Roland looked at them. " It's like I said, mate. She has a normal life, loving parents and great friends and she has a dream she follows. Yes, I do love her and I don't think I can ever stop loving her, but she's had a rough past and she needs someone to be there for her through good and bad times. " he took a deep breath and signed again. " And I hate it that I can't be always by her side. But even though I might not be that someone, deep inside I hope she finds true happiness in this mad world. And even though she doesn't feel the same way, it's better to be just friends than nothing, as much as it pains me to admit it. " with that said, he looked down, hiding the pain in his eyes as he played with his fingers.

" Hold on, how do you know that she doesn't feel the same way? " Ian asked confused.

Roland looked at him with his tired brown eyes. " And you think she does? "

" We all think that. I mean, just a while ago, you guys acted like a couple, even though you're not, yet. " Curt chuckled.

" And the way you look at each other tells us that you two have a deep connection, you're just too shy to admit it. " Ian added.

" And she's truly happy whenever she's around you. She can't stop smiling and laughing. "

" Not to mention she turns bright red when you guys make eye contact or you touch hands. "

" She has faith in you, and yes, we believe that she's in love with you. " Curt finished, smiling.

Roland looked down once again, this time in deep thought. His heart started racing as he thought more about the possibilities that Scarlet might feel the same way about him. He couldn't help but smile lovingly. But his smile quickly vanished when he thought of something else.

" But she said that she'd felt lonely most of her life and doesn't want that. "

" Ask her to come on tour with us. " Ian suggested, making the singer look at him, his eyebrows raised up in disbelief.

" And make her leave her parents and friends behind? "

" You said it yourself, she'd been alone most of her life. I'm not saying to leave them all behind, in the past, I'm saying that she needs to move on, see the world and go on many adventures, I'm sure she'd want that. "

" He has a point. That way you'll be closer than you ever were. And if I'm not wrong, I do believe she said she'd never felt truly happy before, even with her friends. " Curt added softly.

" That's not an excuse for leaving her family. "

" Oh, for the love of-, " Ian let out, frustrated. " Roland, if you truly love her, than you'll do anything to make her happy, right? " Roland nodded confidently. " Then what's exactly stopping you? "

Honestly, he didn't know the answer. He just felt like it'd be wrong to make her leave her family and friends behind. Well, it wasn't like he was forcing her or anything, he'd never do that. Yes, he did want to be by her side, to spend time with her, to make her happy, and most of all...

Show her how much he loved her.

The thought of that made him bite his lip, oh how much he'd want that. But there's always time for everything.

Hopefully the guys were right about her loving him back.

" Roland, mate? You okay? "

Roland woke up from his trance-like state and looked up and the worried faces of his band mates.

The singer gave them a reassuring smile. " Yeah, no worries. I was thinking about what you said to me, and yes, I'd want that, more than anything. " he said, more confident than her ever was. " I'll do everything in my power to be the reason for her happiness. Thanks a lot mates. "

Both Curt and Ian smiled widely and Ian patted Roland's shoulder. " Glad we can help. "

" What are friends for? " The three of them chuckled. He thought about Scarlet and the many adventures that await them. He knew it would be hard for her, but he promised that he'd be there for her.

They all looked up when they heard the door open. They saw Manny, holding a few water bottles in his hands, but something wasn't right. He looked confused and sad.

" Hey Manny. You okay? " Ian asked concerned for his friend.

" Uh, yeah, I guess. " He scratched the back of his neck nervously and Roland immediately knew that something wasn't right.

" Are you sure, Manny? " he asked, his eyes narrowed.

Manny knew that look, he also knew that he couldn't lie to him, Roland would figure it out anyway.

" Well, not really. It's just...Scarlet left just now, and she looked pretty upset, I don't know why. She told me to tell you bye and good luck. "

The three band mates looked at each other, confusion, worry and shock written on their faces. Curt looked at Manny and asked " Did she say why she left? "

" She said she had to meet up with a friend, she looked like she was in a hurry. I don't know guys, one moment she was fine, the next she looked like she wanted to go home. I just wished there was something we could do to help her. " The drummer ran a hand through his hair in frustration.

" Where's Nicky? " Ian asked.

" She went home, wasn't feeling well, something about a stomach ache. "

" What the hell is going on today? " Ian cursed, looking down.

" I don't know, but as much as I hate to admit it, we need to rehears, so... " Manny looked nervous while saying this.

Ian nodded and stood up, stretching his arms. Curt looked at Roland, who was in deep thought once again, he was worried, they all were, but they needed to rehears, they'll try to help later. The bassist put a comforting hand on his shoulder as Roland looked up and was met with warm hazel eyes.

" Don't worry, Ro. Whatever it is, we'll figure it out, I promise. " Curt smiled at him. Roland wanted to smile back, but something was stopping him, he had a bad feeling about this.

They all got up and started rehearsing again.

But not even their music could make them feel better.

Au: Sorry this is a short chappie but hope you liked it. And yes, I'm back, I said I would update once a month and it's been two months since I last updated, but work has been stressful, with the season coming, more customers come and, well, more work. But good news, I already have new ideas for the next chappie, I'm gonna start writing it soon, so stay tuned, I might publish it this week. Bye-bye! :)