Beautiful

Chapter 8:Tape 4

Dad stopped recording and gave me some medicine to calm me down.
I held a cup of water with my shaky hands and drank some.

"Are you Okay?"He asked looking at me as I was resting on the couch.

"Better"I answered.

"You want to talk about it?"He asked and I looked at him.

"Not as a doctor but,as a father"He said and No,I don't want to.

"You must have said that earlier"I said and he took a breath,he is tired of my words and my swinging mood.

"I want to talk to you but as a doctor"I completed and he was sad.You can tell.I regret doing that but,I want to be cruel to him as he was to me.

"As you like,but we will record"He said and I nodded as an acceptance.

Tape 4

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"What happened to you there?"He asked and I took a breath.
I wish I had the memory issue Ezra had to forget this memory.

"I woke up in darkness"I said as an intro and completed.
I felt like the ceiling was so close to my chest.
I tried to move but I just lifted my arm about 25 centimeters and touched the ceiling.

I wasn't fully aware of what was happening then after minutes,I tried to move what was around me but I realized that it was impossible.

Adrenaline started to rush and I'm losing my breathe.
I felt like I was dying but what was driving me crazy is that I don't understand what was that.
Is it real?A dream?Hallucinations?

"HELP!"I shouted and started knocking on that close ceiling but,it swallowed the sound.I felt like it was a different material compared to the side or the walls.

"HEY!WHAT IS HAPPENING?!"I shouted again then started touching what is around me.
The side or the walls were like cement,just normal rough walls while the ceiling was marble.
I curved my knees trying to move the ceiling,it was sliding slightly but it was so heavy.

"I stayed there for an hour,as I was losing my breath,I was getting more terrified,I scream more,I moved more and I called his name several times"I said.

"You mean Ezra?"Dad asked and I nodded.

I curved my knees again and lift what was above me with my arms,screaming,killing what is left from me from ashes.

It moved upwards and light entered but then it fell again.
"That light as it was so faded and dark blue but,it gave me consciousness that I'm actually alive and for a reason I wanted to fight"I said and dad was holding his tears back.

"I felt like,saying I want to die is easy but when it comes to the action,you need to think one more time about million things and I didn't want to die like that,I could have never left myself dead in a place I could never understand and here I am"

I started to move it upwards then slide it to the left and did that several times,I was losing my breath,I was losing my power,my hope until a small triangle appeared above my face.

I started to push it away crying like crazy until half of my body was seeing the light.
I couldn't sit,I stayed in my place inside that hole,looking at the actual ceiling for 7 minutes straight and closed my eyes for 2 minutes.
I sat and didn't move that marble then looked around me.

I was in a room.
I was under the ground in a hole looked like a rectangle and above me was a heavy square-shaped marble.

I started to cry,can't believe I actually lived this experience,I took my breath after seconds then stayed still like a statue for two minutes looking at my dirty body that had scars in random places.

I had no idea what was that room.It had a big window.

I stood up fast then went towards the window.
Should I leave or return to look for Ezra?"

"Hell no!"Dad shouted and stood up and started moving.

"You didn't return back,right?"He asked.

"Does it matter?I'm right in front of you"I said spreading my arms showing myself.

"Did you return?"He asked waiting for an answer.

"I mean,I guess"I said and he couldn't understand so I completed,"Yes,duh"

He covered his face and I laughed.

"You aren't normal!"He said and I nodded.

"I agree,that's what makes me special"I said smiling remembering his memory dancing.

"I returned back,went to the door and clicked on the door knob but it didn't open.It was locked."

"Are you trying to drive me crazy?"Dad asked and his face was turning red.

"What do you want?I'm fine in front of you,thank you for caring"I said loudly and he removed his glasses.

"Alice,Complete"

"I returned two steps backwards and found a paper.
A paper I saw a million times.

I took it,it had red spots on it.
I touched the red,wishing it was paint.
How foolish?

I closed my hands feeling it spreading through my hand lines.
I understood that something happened and it wasn't from a long time.

I jumped from the window,looked around me.
The scene around me was so blue,I couldn't understand if it was sunset or sunrise.

It was hard for me to walk.
I was barefoot walking on stones and dry cement but after seconds,I passed this place and started walking on sand after getting a few scars in my feet.
Then I was walking on grass.
I looked behind me.The place is huge.

When I was a child,I imagined the end of the world as a cliff and if you looked at the bottom,you will see nothing.Just the sky and it was getting darker.
This thought would scare me,but now,I felt like this was the actual end of the world.
I couldn't go back to the end and even dare to see what's after this place.

And I started running.
Running like death was chasing me.