Her Conflicted Heart (aka the bad boy next door)

Forgive & Forget

Recap:

I get a glimpse of James and he is tying the robe back around his naked body covering himself as fast as he can. I can tell that I hurt him. It is plastered across his face. He doesn't make eye contact with me or even acknowledge my presence as he exists the class. It is like a kick to the gut. I feel so bad for treating him that way.

"Olivia, did you hear me?" Julian's voice brings me out of my thoughts.

"I'm sorry Julian, what did you say?" I respond awkwardly.

"I was saying that your answer was a breath of fresh air. I usually don't get responses like that on the first day." He states.

"Oh, well I just tell it like I see it." I explain to him.

"Good. I hope to hear more from you throughout the semester." he states as he walks back to the front of the class.

"I will try." I explain as I walk towards the door, "see you Wednesday."

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I looked all over for James as I exited the class room and couldn't find him anywhere. I feel horrible and I need to find him and apologize immediately. I should have never said what I said about him in front of the class. He was so sweet to me and last night was so amazing. Why did I have to be such an asshole. Liv you are an asshole, a giant asshole!

I usually wait for Owen or Charlie to catch a ride home but Owen has baseball practice and I am sure Charlie is going to hang out and drool over him while he sweats. So I am going to walk back to the apartment. Hopefully a nice long walk will clear my head and I can think about what a dick I was to James and what I am going to do to get him to forgive me. He has to. 

I walk for a few minutes lost in my own thoughts only to be startled out of them by a loud HONK! Startled I jump and look around quickly and to my surprise there is James driving along side me trying to get my attention. I drop my eyes to the ground still embarrassed by my actions. I can't even look him in his eyes. James pulls to the side of the road and I stop walking. I don't say anything, I just stare at the ground kicking some gravel around with my feet.

"Didn't you hear me, Liv? I have been honking and calling your name for the last few minutes." he states solemnly.

"No, I am sorry I didn't hear you. I-I was lost in my own mind." I replied still not looking up at him leaning out of his truck window.

The door opens and I can hear James jump out and make his way towards me. I slowly look up to him still hesitant to make eye contact. Before I can get form a complete sentence in my head my mouth starts to run wild without me...

"I am so sorry James for everything I said in class! Please, please forgive me. I am such an idiot. I do not know what I was thinking..." But before I could finish James placed his finger against my lips silencing me.

"Shhhh... It's ok, Liv." he shushed me.

"W-what! No, no its not." I pleaded.

"Yes, its ok. I was angry at first, but then I realized that I have feelings for you and I don't want to miss out on what this could be." He states.

"You should be angry with me. I am an idiot!" I reply.

"Out of all of that all you pick up on is that I was angry?" He questions.