Lustful Eyes (not edited)

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Motley Crue original members got back together, I became pregnant and had twins Alexsandro Lorenzo Sixx and Ariana Belle Sixx, Everly had a girl named Sophia Michelle Lee.  Nikki and I still have quarls, would say fights but they aren't bad so I say quarls.

I would love it if things would turn out for the better. I mean for the Crue it has, for Everly and Tommy it has. And apart of having Jax, Alex, and Ari things for me and Nikki hasn't been the greatest hence the quarls.

I feel like he is falling out of love with me and when I mention it to him he says I am crazy and that what gets a quarl started.

This time I think a Fight is gonna happen so I asked Tommy and Everly to watch the kids for me so if a fight does happen then they won't have to hear it.

I am sitting in the recording studio recording a new song I had come up with. I had my eyes closed and really getting into the song that I didn't know Nikki was in the studio till he talked.

"So you been hiding in my studio wasting my things for nothing? "

I opened my eyes and stopped singing.

"I didn't think it was a big deal, I mean I have replaced the material I used up, I am just doing this to relax, you go out all the time so what else should I do?" I asked

"Take care of the kids, which by the way where are they?"

"With Everly and Tommy," I said as I removed and hung the headphones up and walked out of the recording booth.

"Why are they there instead of being home with you?"

"I knew something like this was gonna happen and they don't need to hear it."

I walked out of his studio and headed for the living room

"You knew what, that I would be pissed off at you wasting my things?"

"No Nikki didn't know that you would have a shit fit for me using your things. any other time you never gave a shit, you would encourage me to go ahead and do it. Knowing I would replace what I used."

"That was then this is now so don't go into my studio and waste my shit"

"Fuck you you fucking asshole." I said finally snapping

"you know what fine I won't go back in your shit hole studio. in fact, you can take it and shove it so fucking far up your ass that it squeaks whenever you walk."

He went to grab my face but I grabbed his wrist

"You're not allowed to touch me, you are doing me shitty and I am not about to let you touch me regardless of it being wanting to make sure you have my attention or to show affection. which I have no worries of you  ever doing that again.

I let his wrist go and he rolled his eyes

"This shit again?"

"Yes Nikki this shit again as you call it"

"I am so sick of hearing about this"

 "I wouldn't have to say anything if you paid actual attention to how you are and how things between us are shitty."

"Things between us is not shitty"

"Oh really?"

He nodded his head so I walked over to the table picked up all the tabloids and other proof of people noticing what is going on and I handed them to him. He looked at them before walking into the kitchen and trashed them.

"They always say horseshit of things they don't fucking know about."

"what about  our friends Nikki, do they say horseshit about things they don't know when they first-hand witness what I have been trying to get you to see but you choose to ignore it?"

"You know what I don't need this Brani is not this bad."

I looked at him hurt and he closed his eyes realizing what he just said

"Since when?" I asked

"Before Jaxon was born, I have three kids with her."

I nodded my head

"You kept your side chick a secret from me. You have been cheating on me secretly. Leaving me alone to raise three kids while you go to her and help her raise her three. you make me feel like I am worthless, that no matter how hard I fight nothing I do for you is good enough. You put on a big show in front of our kids and try to do the same in front of our friends but you slip up and show. You don't know how many nights I would cry my self to sleep. and you don't fucking care. You fucking asshole. I love you and while I was pregnant with your son you were fucking Brandi, then continued to fuck her and cheat on me as time when on and we had two more kids."

He said nothing just stood there so I removed my ring grabbed his hand and slapped it down into his hand.

"Fuck you its over and I am filing for divorce and full custody." Have a good fucking life with your side chick and her kids" I said as I walked off grabbing my keys and left.