Elements Of My Heart

In or Not?

My feet seemed to move before I could even come up with a strategy. shit now is not the time! panic began to set in as I steered myself right into an enemy, quickly freezing its feet. I brought it down and tumbled to the ground. the quick fight seemed to have brought me out of my panic mindset and I got up. "Damn!" I turned around to see some blond kid on the ground and one of those shitty robots behind him. I sighed and ran towards him, helping him up and kicking the piece of machinery down. "hey! thanks lady!" he smiled widely and ran off. the other kids were screaming out how many robots they had brought down but, that was all for show. I knew the teachers would keep count so why should I? I was dragged out of my thoughts as I heard gasping and I turned around to see a fairly pretty girl trapped under some rocks. I looked up to see a huge robot should I take it? my anxiety kicked in and my heart started to pound. just as I was about to make a decision the same green haired boy from earlier punched it to the ground. wait...that punch. I narrowed my eyes at him and watched as recovery girl came running from the teachers booth and up to him. As she talked and picked the boy up to go heal him I could hear some kids gawking at seeing her and some talking about what had just happened. All I could think about was where I had seen that punch from and, it was already over due to being cut short. I only took maybe two down...is that enough. my eyes began to water as the rest of us walked out. we were quickly sent home and I decided to wait for Fumi. He ran up to me and placed an arm around my shoulder. "So!! how do you think it went?" I sighed as a reply and kept my head down. he looked at me for a split second and took his arm from off of me. "Hey. why don't we go get some soba? get your mind off of whatever happened in there?" I grabbed my keys from my pockets and smiled at him. "I'd love to Fumi but, we should both get some rest. I already know you pushed yourself out there." I hugged him and he nodded in agreement. "Right. If you need me, just text me and i'll be there" he smiled. "of course, now get home and get some rest birdbrain!" he rolled his eyes and laughed and we walked our separate ways. Fumi most likely is still gonna get food but, I just want to get home. As I walked I could feel the tears started to roll down my face. I didn't want to be a disappointment. I tried out there dammit. I clenched the keys in my hands as tears rolled down my face even harder. I stopped at my porch and stared at the grey door. do I even deserve to be in the same house a pro hero? I put the key in and quietly opened the door. dad most likely won't be home for awhile. I wonder if he's helping pick and if he is, I wonder how disappointed he is in me. I closed the front door and immediately made my way to the kitchen, swinging open the freezer door. I eyed around till I saw some ice cream, "oh how cliche Y/n." I grunted, grabbed the ice cream and a spoon and started making my way to my room. I threw myself onto my bed and began eating the ice cream in silence. Am I just overreacting? I sniffled and continued eating in silence.

Aizawas pov

I watched over Y/n the entire time. "that's points right? she helped that kid up and took down the robot" I looked over at the other teachers and smiled as they all nodded. I kept my eye on her panicked figure and couldn't help but feel nervous. she was too dragged into her thoughts to even realize how many she was taking down. My eyes snapped off of her and to that green haired boy Toshi had been training. "what the hell..." I watched as he brought down the huge tin can and glanced over at Toshi "What the hell  have you been teaching him?" He put his hands up in defense and watched as recovery girl quickly made her way down to the field. I sighed and looked back to Y/n. "Shota, she seems upset." "thanks for pointing out the obvious." I frowned as I watched her slouched over figure exit the field and out of sight. "you're free to go home. we'll do the hard work. there's no doubt Y/n made it in, just don't tell her that yet." I nodded and grabbed my stuff. Shes probably stressing herself too much to even realize what happened in there. if the element weren't her quirk, all that damned over thinking would be. I quickly walked down the street to the house. she's most likely in her room asleep or eating. or both. I went to unlock it but the door was already unlocked. I shook my head and made my way in, locking the door behind me. I made my way to her room and heard quiet sniffs coming from inside. it broke my heart to even imagine her crying. I opened the door and my eyes landed to a curled up ball on her bed with an empty ice cream tub. "you know. leaving the door unlocked is a sure way to give your dad a heart attack." her puffy eyes landed on me and she grunted. I sighed and laid down next to her. "don't make me tickle you young lady." She rolled out of bed and yelled before taking the blanket off of her. I looked down at her, silence taking over both of us. she eventually looked up at me. "Did..did I do bad?" I ran my fingers through my black hair and laughed a little. "are you kidding me kiddo? I can't say anything official yet but, you took down so many robot while in that panicked state of yours I could hardly count. plus saving that kid helped your score a whole lot." the light in her eyes returned as she looked at me "r-really! I thought I only took down two.." I shook my head and got up. "a lot more than two. now, if you're not all filled up on ice cream I can make dinner and we'll watch a movie to celebrate getting that hell over." She nodded and wiped her face, now bouncing with energy. "good, you pick a movie and i'll put a pizza in." I hugged her and placed a small kiss on the top of her head. "i'm so proud of you kid."