|♡Lovely♡| ★ Bakukami/kamibaku★

Chapter 13

Kaminari pov•

I thought about jiro's request for the band to get back together and perform pride songs, I sit in my bed drawing and listening to music, but I can't relax, I keep thinking about my parents and how they would react to me being bi, my hands start shake, the drawing is ruined at this point, I drop the pencil and notebook and fall back into my bed still listening to music.

I'm just so scared, the Bakusquad doesn't know about my parents, and I have to answer jiro soon, I'm so fucking scared.

I sigh and let the music carry me away, I start to fall asleep but I wake myself up, it's only 6:30 pm, I want to talk to someone, I wip out my phone and ask Shinsou if he wanted to hang out, he said yes, I get out of bed and freshen up a little.

I heard a knock at my door, shinsou's here! I fling the door open and let him in, "shinsou! I'm glad you are here. I wanted to talk." I said happily and sit down on my bed, and he sits down next to me.

" what's up my dude. " he said as if he wanted to die, "okay, so jiro asked me to sing at the festival, she said she was able to get a stage and stuff, she wanted to do LGBTQ+ pride songs and she wanted me to sing, but my parents are gonna be there......" I say uncertain.

"That's rough buddy, you should do it, if your parents don't like that they I'm you're new dad." He said, waving his arms a little, " I don't knowww...... " I say exasperated, I fall back into my bed and Shinsou does the same, "fucking, do, it." Shinsou said sternly at me.

" You know what? Fuck my parents, fuck the world, I'm doing it. " I said while sitting up excited, "now you're talking!" Shinsou said waving his fist around, " lets go get the band back together! " I said jumping up and grabbing Shinsou and pulling us to jiro's dorm.

I knock excited, she answers with headphones in and a face mask on, "Jiro!" I said loudly, she takes off her headphones and looks at me confused, "Let's make this the gayest thing!!" She looks confused then it clicked , "Yes! I knew I could count on you!" She said while grabbing my shoulders and shaking me, Shinsou was just standing behind me awkwardly.

"Thank shinsou, for helping this dumbass." Jiro said to him pointing a earphone jack at me, "c'mon jiroooooo...." I whine at her, she sighs and gestures me in, "you can't come in, top secret." I say to Shinsou , he just nods and walks away.

"Alrighty what's up?" She closed the door and picks up a pile of papers, "Songs!" I instantly perk up and pounce on the pile, "I was thinking the main ones that we would perform are 'girls/girls/boys by panic! at the disco, and 'everyone is gay' By small big world, and maybe some others!" She says as sorting through the pile, "I love those songs!!!" I basically shout at her, she just laughs.

"The only problem is I don't have Bakugou as the drummer and I don't know how I'm gonna get him to play them." She sighs, I giggle , "don't worry I got that covered!" She looks puzzled and then shrugs .

"KAMINARI!" We hear Iida yell, "uh, yeah?" I say back, " Uraraka wants to talk to you! " huh?, "I'll be there in a second!" I reply " got to go jiro, ttyl! " I say as I get up and leave her dorm, I see her giving me a sly smirk, waves me to the elevator, we walk in and see Shouji, he gets off at his floor and she gives me this look then says.

"Are Dating Bakugou?" Her smirk widens as I blush heavily, "m -maybe...." She just laughs, " please don't tell anyone! " I say as I turn cherry red, "don't worry I won't! I had a theory! I asked Bakugou and just threatened me but I could instantly tell you two were dating!" She says inbetween giggles.

"You're just as bad as Mina and hakegure!" I sigh as I try to contain my blush that is quickly spreading , "well heres my stop " she hopes out of the elevator and pushed the button to bakugo's floor, I curse her as the door shuts.

I wip out my phone text bakugou.

💖Bakugou💖

Kaminari: hey, uh, someone may or may not know we're dating.

Bakugou: kaminari, you absolute dumbass

Bakugou: was it round face?

Kaminari: &👀😯

Kaminari: ye e yee

Bakugou: I'm tutoring shitty hair rn have to go, ily

Kaminari: ilyt!!!💖

I put my phone in my pocket and press the button to my floor, I sigh and walk into my dorm, and grab my ear buds and lay down, and press shuffle on my sad playlist, 'I can't handle change ' By roar comes on, and my heart starts to ache.

Hanging out where I don't belong

is nothing new to me

I get tired and I get sick and then I lose the strength to leave

I lay there, my hands shaking, a cold sweat building o on my back and neck, thoughts of doubt make my head spin, my heart is beating so fast, I'm having a panic attack, all I could think of was Bakugou being kidnapped, my eyes burn as tears start to spew out, I couldn't stop, it's getting dark.

I can't handle change

Nothing I do is ever good enough

Nothing I do is ever good enough

Images of Bakugou being taken away as I did nothing flashed in my brain and I felt like screaming, my breathing was ragged, I felt like I was about to pass out, black tints my vision as I close my eyes......

leave me alone

I wanna go home now

I can't help but repeat myself

I know it's not your fault

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// Hi welcome to angst, I wrote this while having an panic attack, but I'm good now, if you need any help with anxiety or depression or you just need someone to talk to, my dms are always open! This chapter finally out! Whew! I'm moving in 4 days so that's why updates have been slow sorry, thanks for reading!!//