His Little Secret || Taekook (ON HOLD)

Chapter eleven

Jungkook pov.
I got dressed properly and went downstairs to have breakfast as Jin hyung told me to with the most uninterested expression ever. I sat down on the table to notice no one else was there yet other than Jin hyung who was cooking in the kitchen. Jin hyung saw me and walked over with a plate of noodles for me and placed it in front of me.

"That's like a good boy." He said with a smile as he ruffled my hair. I just smiled back at him and looked back at the food trying to avoid his gaze. He was trying way too hard to act normal. I knew he was suffering and that he was falling apart but he just didn't want to show it. I don't know why.

"Namjoon! Can you please wake the others up?" Jin hyung yelled as he walked back inside the kitchen to prepare food for the rest.

"Yes, hyung!" I heard namjoon hyung shout back. Soon enough hoseokie hyung was downstairs with a tired, worn out face and he sat opposite to me with a smile and I smiled back mumbling a low "good morning" to him as he nodded in response. Jin hyung came with another plate of noodles and gave it to him and smiled at him and hoseokie hyung smiled back. They all were trying so hard to fool each other with those fake smiles but it wasn't working though. I knew that all of them know that they are faking it and so I didn't even want to try but still they did.

"Jungkook?" I heard hoseokie hyung call me and I looked up at him. "Uh sorry. You were saying?" I asked coming back to my senses as I scratched my neck unconsciously.

"No um...I was just saying you looked a little distracted and uncomfortable. I was just worried." He said as he shoved a spoon of noodle in his mouth.

"Hm. No I'm fine. Just nervous because it's my first day at my office." I lied laughing nervously as I avoided his gaze, tugging a strand of my hair behind my ears. It was way too hard for me to lie to them like that but there was nothing else I could do.
Then came namjoon hyung and sat beside hoseokie hyung as Jin hyung served him his plate of noodles and he thanked Jin hyung. He looked over at me and smiled as he greeted me and I nodded.

"What bout yoongi?" Jin hyung asked namjoon hyung as he sat next to me with his plate of noodles.

"Staring at the pictures on his wall and writing something. I also noticed he created a portrait. His eyes looked cloudy and he seemed to be acting as if he was lost." Namjoon hyung said sighing with his smile dying down as he continued. "He can still feel our touch so i think you can make him eat somehow. But he can tell the difference between ours and jimin's touch easily. Quite vague. Even the therapists can't help him anymore." Namjoon hyung stated as he began to eat too. Jin hyung just hummed and then everything fell silent. It was quite awkward so I stood up and left even though I heard Jin hyung calling me. I couldn't stay there anymore. I was getting tired and hearing about how much yoongi hyung is suffering is just like listening to my future. I know one day, I'll lose my sanity and feelings like him if this goes on. Atleast outside I will be able to have some me time.

Now, I was walking all alone on the empty road. Towards a destination that was chosen by everyone for me. I honestly didn't want to go there or care for that matter but they just make me do whatever they want. I understand it's for my own good but what good there is in a life where you don't even want to go after anything anymore. After Taehyung left, it simply feels like my motivation and inspiration left with him. Taehyung. His name never left my mouth or my mind. Been five years since it happened yet it feels like it was yesterday. I can't even word how badly I want to just look at him, just talk to him for the last time but considering he is no longer here, it might sound impossible.

I didn't even realise that I reached my office already. I couldn't even get enough time alone with myself. I just randomly ran a hand through my hair letting out a heavy sigh as I walked in observing the board on the top of the building. "VJM INDUSTRIES...hmm I wonder what it stands for." I mumbled as I entered the building putting on a fake smile.