Toxic [BoyxBoy] Discontinued

CHAPTER 12

Sorry for the late update 🤪

I walked down the stairs and stared at the sight of Elias and Kathryn whispering actively. They both stopped when they saw me. Kathryn tensed up, looking away while Elias simply tried to smiled but failed as it turned into a grimace.

I hated myself for being what I was.

"Lunch is ready." Kathryn muttered, sitting down at the table.

I took a seat next to Elias and mentally groaned when he scooted away from me.

"Did you sleep well?" Kathryn asked, voice strained.

"Yes, what about you?" I lied.

Fact is, I never sleep well.

"Not really." She muttered, glancing at her brother. I glanced and him but he simply ignored me.

He hadn't slept in our bed in almost a week. He slept in Kathryn's room everytime. It pained me to know that I am - to them - the monster under their beds.

I sighed, playing around with the food. I wasn't hungry and hadn't been since the full moon. I was looked at like a monster during the day, and at night, my nightmares made me the monster I am.

"Are you not hungry?" Elias suddenly asked.

I shook my head getting up. I was hungry, but I would rather not eat - I was too bothered to do so.

"That's a shocker." Kathryn muttered, glaring at me.

"Oh yeah. Cause I'm a flipping animal, aren't I!" I exclaimed, annoyed. They just stared at me making me huff as I left. I headed back to my bedroom and sank to the floor, tears streaming down my face. My hands gripped and pulled at my hair before I started running my nails against my neko ears. It was a habit I developed as a child whenever I started panicking.

I got up and wiped my tears away when I heard Elias walk up the stairs. I frowned when he walked in the bedroom.

"We need to talk." He muttered, looking anywhere but me.

I nodded, my left hand continuously scratching my ear as he started talking.

"We need to sort things out. Obviously, we were more affected by the full moon than we let on." He started, taking a deep breath. "We're just scared, Jess. We don't know what to do. You might kill us in our sleep."

I huffed. "It only happens on full moons. You guys are fine. I will always go to the forest." I said, defending myself.

"But you will kill other people or animals there. It's not right." He pressed.

I sighed. "What do you want me to do? I never asked to be like this. They made me like this. Chain me up if you want. Do something, just don't blank me out."

"It's just so risky living with you. How do you manage? Don't you feel an ounce of guilt about killing all these animals and people?" He questioned making me growl at him.

"Not a day goes by without me thinking about it. But I can't do anything about it. I lose consciousness everytime." I said firmly.

"Well you're body is still the one doing it. I don't know what to do. I'm scared you might kill me. I'm sure Josh felt the same way. How did he cope?"

I groaned. "I don't want to talk about him." I said coldly.

Elias groaned in annoyance. "Why? It's so hard for me to cope with this. Why don't you want to talk about him?! I feel like the only solution is to throw you out!"

I shook my head, both of my hands running rapidly across my ears.

"Elias." I whispered.

"Pack your bags. We can't have you here, not while there is still a chance you can kill us." He muttered, walking away.