This is written from Billy's pov
I look at the girl who is lying next to me. I look deep into her [your eye color] eyes. She is beautiful.
This was different. Different from normal. For the first time I have genuine feelings. This girl. She is different from any other girl.
Then she gets up. She puts on the dress she wore the night before. I keep looking at her.
I don't know what to do at the moment. Normally I would just stay in bed. Most girls just leave. We spend a night together and then we never speak again. They often only say goodbye before they leave. I often mumble something back, but that's it.
This is different. I can't just let her go ...
"Do you want ... Would you like something to eat?" I ask carefully.
The girl nods and smiles softly.
I get up and quickly put on trousers. Nobody is home because everyone is at work or at school. Thank god.
Shall I grab her hand? Or do I seem desperate? What will she think of me?
I walk to my bedroom door. She follows me softly. What does it matter? I reach out and her soft hand lands in my hand.
Together we walk to the kitchen. Oh shit, of course I can't prepare anything. I can't even bake an egg. I look around the kitchen and then my eye falls on the toaster.
"Toast?" I ask.
The girl nods again. She seems shy. Or is she sad? Did I do something wrong last night? Now?
Damn, this is hard.
I want to see her more often. Not just for once. But does she want that too? And how can I ask her that?
Oh yeah shit, toast.
I take the toaster from the top shelf in the hope that I won't drop it. " You can sit at the table if you want. Or on the couch'' I say to [y / n].
The girl sits down at the table. "So ... how are you?" I decide to ask uncomfortably. ''Fine. Just getting used to it, that's all, " she replies. "Get used to what?" "I ... This is all new to me. I was in a relationship and this is the first time that I ... '' " Oh ... " I say.
"Was it ... okay?" I ask hesitantly.
The girl nods and laughs with her mouth closed. "That's not the point, don't worry. I'm just someone who holds on to someone quickly. I'm not good at letting go. And when I woke up this morning next to you, I knew I had to let go. That is new to me. But I'm going to try, so don't worry about it. I therefore think it is better to go. Not because I don't like you, because believe me, I do. Oh god, I keep rattling. I'll just go... " she says as she gets up quickly.
In less than a second she's at the door.
"No, don't go," I shout and I run to the door.
I press my lips on hers. It feels like everything around us is disappearing. As if we are alone in the entire universe. I had never felt anything like this. I had never felt this magic before.
The kiss says enough. This is what i want. She is what I want.
"Okay, I'll stay," she says.
I'm sorry this is short. I hope you enjoyed struggling but cute Billy <3
