Feel like we about to break up
He left the room angrily and he slammed the door. You were shocked. Why was he suddenly so aggressive? You knew he could be aggressive, but nothing had happened. What was the reason?
You stared at the door for a while. The door through which he had left the room a few minutes ago. The tears were in your eyes. You wiped a falling tear with your sleeve. You didn't want to cry.
Billy and you have been arguing a lot lately. For the smallest, most stupid things. Just like before. It was just the straw. The drop that broke the bucket. All those stupid arguments made Billy leave the room aggressively.
There was only one thing you could think about that night. Was your relationship over?
It is Friday. You and Billy haven't spoken since the Tuesday night fight. You have not even looked at each other. You feel alone, but don't show it. You don't like it when everyone's attention is on you.
You stand at your locker and see Nancy Wheeler approach you. Nancy has always been your best friend, but she hated Billy and that made your friendship less strong.
"Hey," you say to Nancy. "Hey ..." she muttered, taking a poster from her bag. It is a poster for the Halloween party coming Saturday. "You will come, right?" She asks. "I'm not really looking forward to it ..." you say. You hope it doesn't disappoint Nancy, but looking at her expression she is disappointed. "Why not?" she asks as she looks at you with her big puppy eyes. "Billy and I had a fight and now we don't talk anymore. So I'm not really in a party mood, I'm sorry Nancy. "
"It's okay ..." says Nancy after a while of silence. You smile and turn around and then walk to the classroom.
When you arrive at the door and want to go inside, Billy comes from the other side. You look him in the eye. You look at each other, but you say nothing. Then Billy walks into the classroom. You sigh and then enter the classroom.
You're in your room that Saturday night. You sit on your bed staring in front of you. Normally you would be with Billy now. You would watch a romantic movie. Billy hates that kind of movies, but he wants to watch one for you. Or you would watch a scary movie that always makes you jump a little. And then Billy would put his arm around you.
That's no more. It's over and you have to accept it.
Sitting in your room all by yourself and crying about your relationship that has ended is just stupid. The Halloween Party is still an option. Why not?
Twenty minutes later you arrive at the party. You deliberately got on the bike, because with too much alcohol you can't ride anymore. You walk into the huge house and look around. It smells like beer and there are people all around you. Some are dancing, others are drinking. You can also see some couples kissing.
You immediately walk towards the boys with the beer. You grab a glass and drink it within a few seconds. Actually ... it was gross. You walk away and then you see it in the corner of your eye.
Billy Hargrove.
He is clearly drunk. He looks at you and the moment you want to turn around, you hear: ''[y / n]! Come here!'' You have some doubts, but still turn around. "What?" you shout back. Billy is coming your way. He looks at you for a long time and says nothing at all.
He is getting closer. You feel his warm breath on your face. And he smells of beer and cigarettes, how surprising. Then his warm but soft lips touch yours.
You suddenly pull back. "Billy, you're drunk," you whisper. "I know," he says. And he presses his lips back on yours. "Billy, stop," you whisper. "Why would I?" he asks. "Because I say so," you answer. He kisses you again.
"Hargrove, she says she doesn't want it!" I hear someone calling nearby. Then Billy turns around. He grins and walks toward the boy. Then he slaps him in the face.
The aggression. Again.
"Billy, stop!" you shout. You grab him and pull him along. "I think it's better for everyone if you just go home, Billy ..." you tell him. He almost falls over and can barely walk. '' Okay no, you can't drive like that. Give me your keys.'' He takes his keys from his pocket and puts them in your hand. You walk to Billy's Camaro.
Without saying a word you drive to Billy's house. When you park the car in front of the door, he suddenly says: "Can I stay with you for a moment? Can we drive to your house? My father will kill me if he sees me like this ... " You are shocked by what Billy says. "Uh, sure," you say then.
You arrive at your house. There is nobody at home, because your parents have gone abroad for work. You walk in together. Billy sits down on the comfortable couch and tells you to come.
"Why didn't you want me to kiss you?" he asks when you sit down. "Because you were drunk. I didn't know if you meant it. I didn't want to be disappointed again ...'' you tell him. "Of course I meant it. You are my girl, forever ..." he says softly. ''Really? Because I didn't feel that way after you just left and didn't say anything to me anymore ... "
"I'm sorry, [y / n]."
You nod gently. "Billy, I want to ask you something, but I don't want to hurt you or anything ... What did you mean when you said your father would kill you?"
Billy's face froze. After a moment of silence, he says: "Nothing to worry about, princess."
Little did you know at that time.
"Okay ..." you answer.
Suddenly Billy kisses you. Out of nowhere. Again.
Just wanna kiss and make up one last time
And now you kiss back. You believe what he told you.
You and Billy. Together. Forever.
Touch me like you touch nobody
Put your hands all up on me
'Cause all I want is you up on me
Only Billy is allowed to touch you. Everywhere. Every day. Forever.
And that Saturday, on the couch in your living room, that happened. Not for the first time, but that's how it felt.
Never had it felt so good.
