Cafe Bleu || taegi

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙉𝙞𝙣𝙚

Dear Yoongi,

As you know I've been struggling a bit. Recently I've been having recurring thoughts, that haven't been helping my mental health. I've been trying really hard to keep pushing and trying to make it towards a better me where I will be living a better life than I am now. Where my friends won't have to worry about me so much. And where I won't lock myself in my home because I'm afraid of going out one day and just toss myself off a roof by impulse.

     I've been having a lot of nightmares, really bad ones. With my Hoseok in them. I don't want to go into detail, for your sake, but I just can't shake it off. I've never had dreams like this before. They have been going on for about three months now. I haven't told anyone else. I don't want to be a burden to them. I don't know why I tell you though, someone I've just met, I've put a lot of trust in you, perhaps too much. But I couldn't be bothered.

     The night we slept together was the most peaceful nights I've had in a very long time. Maybe it was finally letting it out after years of keeping it in, or just having someone to keep me accompany? I don't know, but it helped. Writing this also reminds me of what I said to you after we made love. Please don't forget what I said, because I meant it, I mean it. I love you, Yoongi. I know it's been such a short time and I barely know you and you me. But I've never met someone like you before. I want to spend the rest of my days with you. I love you to Pluto and back.

     You are probably wondering where I am. My friends are too. From the few days I've know you, I can guess that you probably didn't tell them of our night. Or of this package. That is alright, you keep to yourself, that's who you are. Since you are most likely reading this alone (I am hoping) I can tell you where I am. The picture, on the back has the location. I know it's far from your home and you have no car, but please try and make it quickly. I just needed some time away, but I've realized it's nothing without you.

     Please come alone and with your love. I need nothing else. We'll never come back, okay? Just so you know. I never want to come back. I want to start over with you. Don't tell anyone. As I write this last part I don't know why I feel a bit panicked. Or exited? I don't know, my heart is just beating like crazy at the thought of being alone with you. I'll finish off here before I start to ramble.

    With Much Love,
Kim  Taehyung

P.S,
Don't forget to tell no one and come alone please     Not even Jin Hyung.

P.P.S
I love you ♡