I'm a failure of your Universe | Captain Marvel

We could feel this darkness with each other

Bars have always been a strange place for her. On Earth she used to visit them all the time with Maria to have fun, sing and dance, break a few records on the pinball machine – much to the dismay of fellow male visitors – and deal with the occasional bad pick-up lines as well as the pure sexism by other soldiers. The later obviously wasn't any fun right in that moment but laughing about them when the night was over and they were on their way back home always had a certain appeal to it.
Without Maria, or a friend in general, the place probably would have been hell and therefore she would have never wanted to go there at all, yet when she was traveling the universe all on her own she couldn't help but feel an urge, a certain need to go and visit a pub again. Or whatever would be the closest the nearest planet had to offer. It wasn't the bar itself that interested her of course but rather the socializing - with literally anyone.

Occasionally when she was close enough to Earth she managed to contact Maria with the communicator on her ship yet since she had left the Skrulls, as she had found them a new home planet, she felt surprisingly lonely. At least way more than she had anticipated all those times she dreamed about living above the clouds. Of course Maria and Monica couldn't just drop everything and travel around with her and that would have been more than fine if she had anyone else in her life she could call a friend.

She was never much of an introvert however she also couldn't remember a phase in her life that was filled with blooming relationships of any sorts. For some reason a lot of people had a hard time dealing with her, both on Hala and on Earth, and while it sure hurt at times, she never had a problem dealing with it as she always had at least one person in her life who loved and supported her.

During her time at the academy and the year or two afterwards, she had Maria who came along with her baby daughter, making Carol feel like she not only had a friend but was a part of a family. By losing her memory and living on Hala for six years she had lost all that but had also found someone else to fill this whole in her life. Someone she trusted, who was always there for her, who became her life and whose life she became. Though now she had to live with the realization that said person probably never really cared for her in the first place.

She didn't want to think about him, or Maria, or even herself, so one day she finally decided to visit the nearest bar she could find, willing to let all her worries go and hopefully find someone she could at least talk to for a few minutes, if not even an hour. Of course she didn't expect or even hoped to find a friend but any and all friendly encounters were fine by her at this point.

For a human the place looked completely unrecognizable and nothing like a pub should look like but after traveling the universe for a few years – and having lived on two different planets as well – nothing surprised her anymore therefore she quickly adjusted to everything she was faced with. And, to be quite honest, while unusual for her eyes, it still somehow was a lovely place to spend a few hours at.

The evening was going well and though she was still sitting alone, just hearing the chatter of everyone else surrounding her already made her feel less lonely. It was a welcome distraction from everything on her mind and she liked listening to strangers' conversations although she often didn't understand what they were talking about as they mentioned planets, animals or other species she wasn't familiar with but when someone eventually mentioned something she did know, she immediately wished the conversations would have stuck to the exotic.

"Have you heard about what happened to Yon-Rogg?"

Carol suppressed a groan. Of course she was aware of her former commander's status among the Kree that reached far beyond Hala, after all she had witnessed him constantly getting approached and celebrated by complete strangers for several years – but this wasn't Hala. It wasn't even a border planet of the Kree Empire. And yet she still couldn't escape him.