How To Survive High School | NCT

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''Did you study for today's test?'' Doyeon asked while we stepping in our classroom

I nodded and my eyes landed on Taeyong who was sitting on his desk.

Did he came first today?How come?

We sat on our desk too and took out our books.Ugh,Chemistry.

During class i couldn't focus,i kept turning around to look at Taeyong.He was actually paying attention to what the teacher was saying and kept notes.

He realized i was looking at him and looked back at me.A confused stare.I quickly turned around,my face was burning.Why am i so nervous?I've never felt like that with him.

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The bell rang for lunch, we went to the cafeteria and sat on our table.

''Hey'' Jaehyun greeted me

''Hi'' i said back 

I looked ahead of me only to see Taeyong sitting right in front of me.

''Um..-''

''Hey guys'' Hansol joined our table,the rest of the guys greeted him back and he looked at me

''Hey,are you okay Jay?'' he asked me ''You seem down'' he said 

''I'm okay'' i managed to smile

''Okay.How did the test go?'' he asked 

''Um okay-''

''Terrible.She wasn't focused at all'' Doyeon said and Taeyong gave me a quick look

''Thanks Doyeon,really'' i sighed

''It's okay Jaime,you'll do better next time.I believe in you'' Jaehyun said and hugged me 

''Your boyfriend's right'' Hansol said and everyone except Taeyong gave me a thumbs up

''Thank you guys'' i smiled and looked down 

I was not okay.Why did i let what happened yesterday get into me?Why did i take it seriously?

We weren't like that.

We were friends and then tried dating..But Taeyong was the one who had feelings for me in the end.

I feel like a slut,like a bad person.I wasn't like that.

What's wrong with me?

Why am i acting like that?

Without realizing i was crying in front of everyone

''Hey,hey why are you crying?'' Jaehyun asked and i quickly hid my face 

''Jaime'' Johnny stood up

''Excuse me'' i stood up and ran out of the cafeteria

I sat on the bench and broke down.

I'm upset with myself

I'm upset because Taeyong won't talk to me

I'm upset because i'm playing with people's feelings