I Become Nervous

Hug Me (안아보자)

BOBBY'S POV

We were preparing for our comeback this August but an unexpected disaster strikes on us. Our leader, Kim Hanbin, was accused of using illegal drugs. But thanks to God, it was already solved. Even we got a positive result, we can't automatically go back to normal. The issue was so big that still bothering their upcoming comeback. That is why they decided to take a rest first and let the issue vanished.

On other hand, Kim Hanbin slowly come back to his normal track like he seldom goes out and composed new songs again.

One day, Hanbin, invited us with Jinhwan hyung to hang out coz we always tried to reach him since he started talking to us again after the issue. We decided to invite the other members and surprised him. It was in that moment we met two interesting fellow who happens to be friends with Jaewon hyung.

I was not interested to them at first but when I have an eye contact to one of them, my heart beats fast. I quickly avoid the stare. She's pretty. Ah. No! She's beautiful. That when I realized I am interested to them.

When Jaewon hyung invites them to join us, it happens that we sat together, I was nervous. I can't speak out. My words are lost. But I felt frustrated when she didn't even tried to talk or even glance at me. I can't accept that she neglects my existence. I tried to argue everytime she speak up to annoy her as a revenge that makes her walk out. From that moment, I can't help but think of her. Her image keep popping on my mind.

Then, another week has come, Hanbin called me to accompany him strolling around. Since I don't have nothing to do, I met him at Mie'Bby's café.

*by the way, I am interested in café's name. I don't have any idea why, I just have this urge to know about the reason behind the name.

Back to the scene.

I was happy seeing Hanbin again with a smile after the allegations he faced. But we were distracted at the couple laughing together while clinging each other's arm. It happened that one of them was Jemie. She looks so stunning but the view was ruined with the guy who's with her.

I don't know but I hate seeing her with other man. I hate seeing her clinging to other man's arm. I hate seeing her laughing or smiling brightly to other man.

Huh? Jealous? No. No. No. No. It will never happen.

My head keep on thinking 'what ifs'.
What if he was her boyfriend,
What if he was her fiancé,
What if he finally met her soon-to-be,

And the other mind,
What if she pretends not to know us,
What if she was faking it,
What if she is actually our fan,
What if I am her bias,
What if she likes me?

"Aaaaaaaaahhh! I am out of my mind!"

I was ready to make her fall for me. I wanted to punish her for ignoring me but it was all vanished when Jeanne told us about Jemie's past. Because of that, I am afraid to hurt her anymore.

Morning came, I decided to have a coffee at Jemie's workplace. I want to check on her if she still have a hangover.

I came to her place with this get-up: