The Three Sided War

Ch.14 My Mental Distress

Mental Break Down Phase 2: Her Present & Future

~~~~Shiori's P.O.V.~~~~

"Sora..."

It was morning of the next day. I was staring at the ground, unable to think about anything else. My dead brother was the only thing playing through my head. I still remember the way he died in great detail. All my voice could say was his name.

"Sora... I'm sorry..."

I don't pay attention as the door opens again.

"Sora..."

"Look at you. I wonder if we need to even do phase two. Looks like you're still caught up on that guy, whoever he was. I think he was just some prison rat."

With the little life I had left in my eyes, I look towards his voice. John was smiling at me. I send him a terrifying gaze.

"He wasn't a prison rat. He was my big brother. Him and his older brothers. They took care of me when I had no one. So call him a rat again."

My gaze turned into a murderous look.

"I'll have no problem hunting your family down. I'll kill your little sister right in front of you."

Not liking what I had to say, he stomped up to me and stabs a knife into my right shoulder. I don't react to it.

"Keep saying that. Did you forget you still have a twin in our care? I could kill him too. Better yet, I could tell him who you really are. You haven't told him yet, right?"

I glare at him.

"I see. You haven't told anyone at that agency of yours. I bet the Port Mafia doesn't even know about the great Vampire Queen. Or should I call you by your other name, hmm? Mistress of Mass Destruction. Which do you prefer?"

"...You know about my true ability, then? If you know what I used to be called, then you must certainly know about it."

"Truth be told, we only know a little bit about it. But what we do know, your ability has to be the most powerful one in the whole world. I wonder what your friends would think about you if they knew everything."

"..."

"What would your director think if he found out he was protecting a dangerous criminal on the run. Or maybe, he'll see you as a traitor for not using your true ability to help the Agency win in this war. You'll be lucky if he just fired you. He might turn you in. Then you'll have to got back to the P.D.B. The place where you killed-"

"Shut up!"

I struggle against my restraints.

"Well, aren't you mad."

"Leave my friends out of this! No one should know about me or my true ability!"

"Well, that's all going to change."

He takes the knife out of my shoulder and turns to leave.

"Get back here!"

"Don't worry. I'll won't say anything...today."

And with that, he leaves.

"I can't... No one should know... I made a promise..."

His words replay in my head.

I can't let anyone know. I made him a promise. I have to keep it. It's the least I can do for killing his little brother. If he finds out, what would happen?

My eyes widen as my mind wonders to my twin.

What would Atsushi think about me if he found out everything? Would he hate me? Would he be scared of me? What if he only sees me as a criminal? He might even disown me as his little sister. Then what family would I have left? I can't lose another brother. I just can't.

...What would Dazai think? He knows nothing about my past. I may be his copy, but I have no idea how he would react to this information. I've kept this a secret from him, what if can't trust me anymore? Would he still see me as a friend? He's a good man now, what if he turns me in as well? I don't think my heart can handle that.

And the Agency, what will happen with everyone there? There's no way the director will keep a dangerous criminal. He'll do what John said. He'll turn me in. I'll go back to the P.D.B. if I'm lucky. Or worse, the government would have to put me down because I escaped the first time. But, not before they question me.

They'll want to know where the others went. Truth be told, I have no idea where the others are now. Oh god... I can't let anyone know. I'll lose all my friends. I'll lose my job. I'll lose my brother.

Tears form as all my friends' faces flashed in my mind.

"I'll lose everything... I don't want that... Anything but that..."

God, I can't let anyone know. Please, help me. I need help. I can't think straight.

"Please... I don't know what to do! Someone tell me what to do!"

My voice bounces off the wall of my prison cell. I hang of head and really begin to cry as I think of my friend who would help me no matter what. He wouldn't care about my past or my ability.

"...Odasaku...what would you do?"