Fightin Like Hell For You ; ryden

Chapter Fifteen

Ryan's POV

"Bren, where are we going?" I huff as he laughs at me for the millionth time this car ride. We've been driving for over twenty minutes and I'm getting impatient. He keeps telling me it's a surprise but I don't want it to be a surprise anymore. I'm sitting in the passengers seat with my arms crossed because Brendon refuses to tell me where we're going. It's really very frustrating. 

"We're almost there, baby. I promise." 

Ugh once again he avoided the question. This time though he slips his hand onto my thigh and squeezes. I suck in a breath and stare at him.

"Don't do that." 

He smirks but keeps his eyes on the road. "I don't know what you're talking about. I'm not doing anything." 

And right as he says that he moves his hand up farther on my thigh and squeezes again. This time I feel the blood rush to places it  shouldn't be rushing. I don't wanna deal with this right now. I'm not ready to do anything with Brendon. We literally just got together. 

I turn my whole body to face him, put on my most serious face, and sternly say, "Brendon, I'm serious. Stop." 

Panic flashes over his features and he immediately retracts his hand. 

"I'm sorry, Ry. I was just teasing. I didn't mean to upset you." 

He sounded so sad and now I feel bad. I sigh a little and grab his hand, entangling our fingers. I bring our hands up to my mouth and lightly kiss the back of his. 

"It's okay, Bren. I just don't wanna do anything too fast.  We both know what would've happened had you continued." 

He nods a little but I can tell he's still a little upset. I really didn't mean to make him upset. God I really can't do anything right. This was supposed to be a special day for us and I ruined it. I'm not gonna be surprised if he leaves me within the next two weeks. He's too good for me. He's gonna go running to Dallon. I don't understand why he's with me in the first place. I'm just a loser who can't do anything right to save his life. 

I'm pulled out of my thoughts by Brendon parking the car. I look and see that he pulled into an empty parking lot. I quickly wipe the tears that fell without my permission and give him a questioning look. I go to speak but he beats me to it. 

"Ryan, what's wrong? Don't think I didn't notice you sniffling and crying. I'm not stupid. You've gotta talk to me when you get upset. I'm here to help you." 

I honestly don't feel like talking to him about this. I don't want him to know about my insecurities because then he'll only stay with me because he feels bad. 

"I don't wanna talk about it, Brendon. It's none of your business." 

My voice came out colder than I intended and I immediately go to apologize. 

"Bren, I'm sor-"

He cuts me off and tries to act angry but I can see the hurt in his eyes. 

"No, don't apologize, Ryan. I get it. You don't trust me. Do you just wanna go home? If you're gonna be pissy all day now there's no point in doing this. I can take you home. You don't have to be around me since I'm obviously a problem. I was gonna use this day to make you feel special since you're so fucking insecure about me running to Dallon. But no, you don't wanna talk to me and tell me why the fuck you randomly start crying like a little bitch baby so maybe I shouldn't do this. I'll just take you home and you can be pissy there, where it won't affect me and hurt me." 

He's crying by the end of this and I can't tell if they're angry tears or hurt tears. I'm full on sobbing now because this really does show that I mess everything up.