Promises

Chapter 11

Steve looked at Y/N and his heart was breaking. She was so lost right now. Something she never been. As long as he had known her she had been a rock for everyone in the team, but now... It hurt him and he wished he could do anything to help her. Whatever she needed. Whatever she would ask for he would give her without a second thought. He knew her like the back of his hand and he knew that she was not dangerous. Yes, she had gotten a lot of new powers and her firepower had obviously been magnified. But deep down he knew he would never ever be afraid of her. Never in a million years. She was still the same person that she always been, just more powerful. With a heart of gold.
Her new ability with fire was amazing. He could not get over how she handled the flame like it was a boll, tossing it from one hand to the next. It was mesmerizing. She was mesmerizing. He could look at her all day if she let him. She was the love of his life and he knew it. All that was left was for her to know it, but first, he needed to give her time. To get a grip of her new powers and to process what had happened to her. He just wanted to be here for her. Make her see that he was the one for her and that he would always be by her side.

You looked at Steve. He had still not said a word and your heart was beating faster and faster. You felt so alone and lost. Did he really think you were dangerous now? You extinguished the fire in your hand and start thinking about leaving the room, but where would you go. This was your room. Steve takes a deep breath and meets your eyes.
"You are not dangerous, Y/N," he says and walks over to you. He hesitates before he takes your hands in his, and the hesitation hurts you. A week ago he would not have hesitated. "You are still you." You nod at this and take a step back.
"I need to shower before I meet up with Dr Cho and Bruce," you say and look at your feet to avoid looking at Steve's face. Scared of what you would have seen if you looked. Steve sighs.
"Don't forget to eat some breakfast," he says and leaves the room after saying goodbye. You sink down on your bed. There is an ache in your chest and it is hard to breathe. It feels like the room is shrinking.
"F.R.I.D.A.Y. can you send help," you get out. A moment later Bruce runs in the room. He sinks down in front of you putting his hands on the side of your face.
"Hey, Y/N," Bruce says with an extra calm voice. "Look at me." You look up at him. "Take a couple of deep breaths with me." You do as he says and the blackness around your vision disappears. Nat walks into the room and see what is happening. She sits down next to you on the bed and strokes your back. After a couple of minutes, the ache in your chest had eased away and you give Bruce a big hug.
"What happened?" Nat wonders and you just shake your head. Bruce gives Nat a pointed look and she does not ask anything more, but it seemed like they were having a quiet conversation between themselves.
"I am going to take a shower," you say and stand up. Bruce blushes and stands up from the floor. Nat smirks and gestures for Bruce to leave the room.
"I will get us some breakfast while you shower," Nat says and leaves you alone in your room again. This you really showered and when you walked out in your bedroom again Nat sat on your bed with two cups of coffee and two bagels. She handed you a cup and you took a sip. It was Caffé Mocha.
"Mmm... You really do know me," you said to Nat, who chuckled at you.
"So what happened last night?" Nat wonders and takes a sip of her coffee. You look at her.
"I mean, I saw Steve walk into your room yesterday with blankets and chocolate and I saw him leave this morning." You look away from Nat.
"He kept me company," you answer and Nat look you up and down.
"Just company?" Nat smirks and you feel yourself get stiff.
"Yes, we watched Doctor Who and fell asleep. Then this morning we talked." You say trying to relax.
"About your relationship?" Nat smirks, but you shake your head. Her eyes go wide for just a second, but you see it.
"No, about everything that happened with Beth and my father," you say and take a bit from your bagel. After this, you eat in silence. You could feel her eyes on you, but you try to ignore it.
"Let's get this check-up over with," you say with a flat voice when you have eaten your breakfast. Nat nods. You need something to look forward to. And just like that, you get an idea.
"How about we get Wanda and Pepper to join us tonight and we get stupid drunk," you smile at Nat and rubbing your hands together. Nat lifts an eyebrow at you and it's like you are hit by a truck when it occurs to you.
"No!" you scream right out. Can you even get drunk now? Steve and Bucky could not get drunk. Well, unless they drank Thor's mead. But that shit was just nasty.
Your door is open with a boom and Bucky runs in.
"What happened?" he wonders looking around the room. You are standing there feeling utterly devastated. You could not get drunk.
"She just realised she can't get drunk with us anymore," Nat smirks and Bucky started chuckling. You shoot them a killing glare and stalks out of the room. Muttering under your breath about being a fucking super soldier. You hear them laughing at you. Maybe you should do like Steve and break a couple of boxing bags. At least you still had chocolate. Chocolate always understood.