Diary of the Forgotten Kid: Raw Thoughts!

Diary of the Forgotten Kid: Raw Thoughts! Part 3

I wake up... it's 10pm and my day is basically gone and what do I wake up to? My best friend who promised she'd be in my life forever removing me from social media. My only source of medication I've had lately to keep me even slightly stable has left me alone in the darkest of places right now and she don't give a fuck if anything happened to me but when she's upset I was always there for her every fucking time! But I guess that's how it is... the more you try hard, the more you die hard. I just wanna know what the fuck I'm doing wrong that everyone just wants to leave? I've always been there to help people when they're hurt and get them back on their feet and make sure they're okay. So why are they leaving? It's like I got her back her on her feet just to see her walk away. So who's going to save me in my darkest hours now? When I have no one to take my mind off things. She was truly my medication and I've lost that over nothing... imagine waking up to your best friend leaving you without any explanation or anything. Imagine you not deserving an explanation for people leaving. And the worst thing is I'm crying and I have no one to turn to because I don't want anyone to see me like this and no one knows me like this and to be honest I don't want anyone to because let's be honest everyone will start treating me different but they will still leave. And when they leave they'll see I was too depressing so I'd rather not burden anyone but now that my medication is gone the only medication I have right now are pills and I don't trust myself with pills. I haven't ate or drank all day and I'm not hungry cuz I lost my appetite. I'm losing weight significantly and I don't even know if anything is going right for me right now. Maybe I have to be patient but I've been patient for 7 years. Being patient doesn't always work. It's like the whole world forget me when I'm gone which is why I want to create my legacy here by writing this diary so maybe one day people will know how I've been fighting all my life and maybe they'll realise what they put me through. But would they miss me? No. They'll just love my story or maybe still not even believe me because they're that ignorant. Anyways I'm sorry to everyone I let down because I don't want you lot reading this and feeling bad I just want you lot to understand me. I'm sorry for making this short I'm just really in a dark place right now. I love you all!

Haych: The Forgotten Kid