A confession

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She was happy, during the first month of their relationship. yes...WAS. Because it changed. He changes as they continue  what the have. But she is insisting her fairytale. She is insisting always to fix everything. Because she loves him and she always want to give him a chance. July 27, 2018. She cried her heart out again for being hurt, and abused. She cried so much till she can't feel the pain. She cried because she felt how it was to be cheated on for the first time. In the middle of the late and silent night, she called her bestfriend. Because she knows she needs someone to listen to her. She knows she needs someone who'll be there to make her feel she was not alone. Her bestfriend picked up, and was worried because of her sobs and silence when she asked her what happened. That night ruined her, the trust she build for herself, the confidence and the smile that she fixed for herself before he came into the picture. Nasira yung tiwala nya sa sarili because he said that he is not that pretty and he can always find new one to replace her. She doubts herself because he told her she wasn't the best after all and she won't be enough to make him happy. Its painful you see, but that night? Even the comforting words from her bestfriend didn't help. She's pained. She's been wrecked to bits by his words. But she choosed to be positive. She choose to cheer herself up again after crying to her bestfriend on the phone. And her bestfriend was proud of her and was happy because her bestfriend saw that even after being hurt she will always choose to be kind, to fight and to continue to be positive even when its hard.