No lies

Never stopped loving you - Episode 45

So so disappointed after episode 45, a waste of 2 hours, it brought absolutely nothing to the story. As for the fragman of epi 46, I just cannot believe it. Sanem has suffered, gone to hell and back and overnight becomes the silly and childish girls she used to be?!?! What a waste☹ I feel sorry for actors... and humiliating Sanem? Really? Writers did it for at least a dozen episodes already!!!! Grrrrr!!!! So anyway, my ''dream'' version of episode 45. Starting when Can notices Sanem is wearing their engagement ring around her neck.

Sanem slowly opened her eyes and turned her head. Can was still stuck in a stare, holding her ring between his fingers. She snapped her necklace back and quickly sat in the hammock, flustered.

C: ''you still wear it?'' he asked, his eyes pleading for any answer that might mean she still loved him.

S: ''I promised I would... I keep my promises.'' Ouch!

C: ''don't, if you don't want to... you can break the promise Sanem.'' He answered sadly.

S: ''I don't want to...'' she didn't dare to look him in the eyes and dropped her head down.

C: ''why?''

She chose her words, ''it reminds me of us, we had some good times...''

He smiled, shyly. '' We did!'' He sat on the mat next to her and reached for his back pocket, ''I... I still have your bandana'' he pulled it out, ''it never leaves me.''

She looked up; her eyes wide open. She slowly took the bandana, ''I know you ran into the fire for it... that was stupid.''

C: ''It was my beacon when I was at sea Sanem, the only way I could feel you next to me.''

She let out a snarky laugh, ''you could have stayed next to me Can! I was here the whole time.''

He dropped his head between his legs, ''I know Sanem and I am sorry I left so fast. I couldn't stay thinking you didn't believe me.''

S: ''yeah well, we've had that conversation already, right?''

He took a deep breath in, realising he had nothing to lose. ''Sanem, we... we could have more good times?''

S: ''what are you saying?''

He had enough of pretending, she was to fragile to keep beating around the bush.

C: ''the moments your ring reminds you of, we can have them again... I love you... I never stopped loving you Sanem and we both know there is never gonna be someone other than you.''

She turned her head, trying to stop the tears from showing, and bit her bottom lip.

C: ''You know I've changed... I am not this aggressive guy you met, I am in peace now Sanem, I don't need to escape, I don't need to fight, I will never hurt you.''

Tears were now rolling down her face; Can knelt at her feet and held her hands.

C: ''talk to me please...''

S: ''I can't...'' she stood up and ran away, his eyes followed her while his heart shattered in pieces.

Sanem felt dizzy, almost nauseous; she had dreamt of this for a year and now that it was happening, she was terrified. She ran to the pier and stared at the dark waters, sobbing, she was so confused. She knew she loved him still, and that she would never love anyone else but the fear of getting hurt petrified her, she wouldn't recover if she ever lost him again.

She felt his presence behind her; he remained silent for a while, fidgeting... She turned around, her eyes were swollen and red, he hated being the cause of it.

C: ''talk to me, I beg you...''

She turned back toward the water, ''I love you too, I never stopped and...'' a sob escaped her, ''and it hurts... it hurt so much Can, it almost killed me.''

Tears formed in his eyes, he could feel her pain and her love all mixed in one overwhelming feeling and he didn't know what to say to help her. He approached, slowly, and placed a hand on her shoulder.

C: ''I promise you Sanem, I will never, ever leave you.'' He felt her tremble and gently wrapped his arms around her shoulders. She let him invade her space, fell back onto his chest and let him support her weight before her legs gave in.

C: ''I might as well be dead if I don't have you in my life... I was dead for a year Sanem and I know you were too.''

She remained silent but he could feel her heart beat faster than normal. ''when you jumped on my boat yesterday, you told me no to leave... why? Why did you want me to stay?''

S: ''stay with me'' she interrupted, barely audible. ''I couldn't let you go again...'' She placed a hand on one of his and squeezed. ''Sometimes, I am not even sure you are real Can, are you really back?''

He swiftly turned her around so she could see his face, ''I AM real Sanem, I came back and I stayed for YOU, only you... not my father, not the agency, nothing but YOU!''

Her eyes were roaming all over his face, her mind going a million miles an hour.

C: ''you trust me?'' he finally asked.

After a few long excruciating seconds, she nodded, ''I trust you.''

He tightened his arms around her and kissed her forehead his hand diving into her hair and the other onto her back. ''I am never letting you go Sanem, you are my life.''

She looked up into his eyes, ''I belong to you Can Divit, I always did...'' a tear rolled down her cheek as her mouth formed a smile.

Can finally gently kissed her lips, resisting his sense of urgency; but it's Sanem who deepened the kiss.

S: ''I've missed this'' she mumbled in his mouth.

C: ''me too... so much...'' he lifted her off the pier and tasted every nook of her mouth. ''I belong to you Sanem and I will spend the rest of my life taking care of you.''

I know I won't watch the whole of episode 46, just like 45, or many after episode 19, I hate Sanem acting silly and childish, especially now since it absolutely does not make sense!!!

Writer change after epi 47!! EK is really lucky to have amazing actors and very patient fans!!!