I Still Choose You

II: It Still Hurts

I woke up in the morning after the break up. Hoping it was just a very bad dream. I woke up with tears in my eyes. How I wish it was just a dream. I turned on my phone, ugh. I can hardly see because of this puffy eyes.

*I touched the Facebook Messenger Logo. Re-read the chats. *

And tears started to fall once again. I actually hurts. And thinking about him leaving hurts so much.

I was so lonely and depressed. So I started to thinl of some one who can comfort me. The only person who came into my mind was KC. He can comfort all the way through.

I called him up.

*Ringing*

"Hello?"

"Bebe? Kc ?" teary voice.

"Ohh. Bebe whats with the teary voice. What happened ?" he sounds so.worried about me.

"Bebe !*sigh* It hurts!*started to cry* It hurts so bad ! Why does it hurt this bad*sobs* " I cried so.hard through the phone.

"Okay bebe. Do this. You just woke up, right ? Well at this time I am quite sure. Have a bath okay ? Meet me at milktea. Then I'll bring you to school after we talk."

"Okay bebe. *sobs* "

*Call ended*

Thank goodness I have KC. I am quite sure he can comfort me. He is the bestbuddy of CJ. Well then I am quite sure he know what has been going on.

(@I<3Milktea)

"Bebe ! Sit beside me. and talk calmly"

"I guess you already knew."

"About the break up ? Yes. I did . Im sorry for that. But Amethyst. I think its for the best. "

"How will this be for the best ? He broke up with me for no good and possible reason. He didn't tell me he loves her. He didn't tell anything. Just a break up, without a single reason!"

"Amy. *sigh* I still think both of you would be better this way. It's not that I am choosing sides. But as the bestman of CJ and bridesmaid of Amethyst. I can say that you will.be alot happier right now.."

"A lot happier ?! Do I look happy to you. I look like a stupid little kid who lost her life and crying damn like a baby in "I<3Milktea" Look ! Kc, I know you told me to prepare myself for this. You told me first that I should just be the first one to let go." I cried

"I know that. But you never listened.."

"Kc ! I trusted him so much ! That is why I never listened to you. Because I know he would never leave. I am so damn stupid ! Such a fool !!!"

"Yes. Amy. Yes you are so stupid. Certifide ! Absolutely stupid! You know you are being cheated on. But you never indeed gave the reality a chance. You only believed in fantasies. Well reality itself forced itself on you! You dumby !"

For a fact in there. He is absolutely right. I neved gave reality a chance to let me learn. I have been a dumby. And now he keeps on talking. While I feel numb and deaf.

And I can still say.

" It freakin' HURTS."