The Daylighter Apprentice

Mini Chapter 2 - What's Done Is Done (MATT'S POV)

I only meant to bite you.

I had no idea your blood would taste so good.

Good is an understatement. In fact, as soon as the first drop of your blood hits my tongue, a wave of bliss pours over me. It's warm and it's rich. It's sweet but not sickly. In short it's the most fucking amazing taste to ever grace my mouth. I try to stifle my moan, body alive with a new, fantastic sensation.

Suddenly, there's fear. I can feel it stronger than I've ever felt your feelings before.

Matthew, you need to stop.

But I can't. You taste so good

Matthew, you shouldn't be drinking his blood. You need to stop. Now.

Just one more second...

"Matt! What-"

What if he dies?!

I fly back, fear now the only emotion I can feel. It's overpowering. I change quickly and begin to pace. This isn't good. Fuck. This isn't good. I can't even bear to glance over to see if you're OK. I can't look you in the eyes after breaking your trust like that. Your blood still trickles down my chin and I lick it away quickly, getting lost in that bliss for one split second as I taste you again.

"Matt?" You're calling my name but I can't face you. Not yet. I continue to pace.

"Matthew!" To hear you so sharp and so blunt cuts through me and I turn to look at you. You beckon me over. I can't help but stare at the two wounds I have inflicted upon your neck. Permanent marks of our bond.

"I need to seal the wounds." I lick your neck but moan audibly this time. Your blood still lingers on your skin and I know it's wrong but I want more. You push me away and that one action hurts more than anything. I've hurt you.

You say you know I'm scared and all of a sudden, my heart swells. You're mine. But you're meant to be mine. You feeling my emotions as a Daylighter means we're truly soul mates. I can only feel love and happiness, despite the circumstances.

When you finally leave, I lie against the pillows and cry. Your scent is still embedded in the sheets but I wish you'd stayed. I wish we could have fallen asleep in each other's arms and worked this through together rather than apart. I know it's a lot for you to take in but it is huge for me too. I wish we could have faced it together.

I've found my soul mate. You are my soul mate. You are the one I'm meant to be with. I wasn't imagining things. That thought comforts me slightly. I've not made a huge mistake. But at the same time, I'm overwhelmed. You're a Daylighter, I'm a vampire. It's up to me to change you and take the risk that you may not wake up after that bite. Whether you ask me to change you or not, I have to agree to change you should the opportunity arise and that's a huge decision I never imagined I'd make. I always thought my soul mate would be a vampire, an easy bond with no technical complications. As much as I love you, knowing that one day I will inevitably have to make one of the hardest decisions of my life all but breaks me.

I shouldn't have bitten you. I shouldn't have drunk your blood. Why was I so stupid?!

The night drags on and all I can do is sit on the floor of the lab, head in my hands and wishing I could turn back time.

It's early when I sense you near the lab but I don't move. I can't.

You don't call out but your footsteps signal your approach. As you get closer, I feel the deep sadness wash over our bond.

You're behind me, strong arms scooping me up off the floor and holding me close to your chest. You carry me to the lounge, setting us down on the sofa. I'm still curled up against you but you make no attempts to move me. I catch a glimpse of the bite and tears start to fall. Your hands pull my body against you and you kiss my head.

"It's OK, Matt. I'm still here, like I promised."

Love, warmth and understanding returns to the bond. My arms snake around your waist in a proper hug. I tentatively press a soft kiss to your wounds.

"I'm sorry." I whisper but you steal my lips into a kiss to hush me.

"It's OK. We can work this out, Matt. But we do need to talk."