Lovely Killer!? || Minsung

19

Some time passed and Jisung finally woke up again. He immediately saw and heard Felix who was obviously worried about his friend.

"You're finally awake! You really have to stop making me worry so much." Felix said and gave his friend a little hug.

"Sorry." Jisung just replied.

"Did it at least work?"

"What do you mean?"

"You wanted to get hit on your head to get your memories back. In the end Seungmin couldn't see you running anymore and hit you. You must've been exhausted. You immediately fell and he didn't even hit you hard." Felix explained.

"I see.. I feel like I remember more now. Maybe not everything, but well, that would be too much to ask for anyways."

Felix nodded. It was silent for a moment until Jisung decided that he wanted to talk to Minho again.

"I think I should leave then, right?" Felix asked knowing the obvious answer and added, "You know, I'll be right there if you need me, mate. Good luck!". Felix smiled and left.

Jisung then got up and called Minho.

"Hello?"

"Hello Minho, I'm sorry to bother, but.."

"Jisung, I don't think you sho-"

"No, please hear me out for a second!"

Minho sighed "Hah.. Fine."

"Thanks.. So uhm.. Can we please talk? Just one proper talk and I won't ever contact you again if you don't want to. I just need to talk to you. Please Minho."

"Is it that important?"

"It is! Please?"

"Fine.." Another sigh "Let's meet."

"Yes? Thank you!"

"Don't get too excited. Where do you want to meet me?"

"At the park from last time?"

"Mhm. See you there."

"Bye!"

Then Minho hung up and Jisung immediately went to the park and waited for Minho. Not soon after, the older one arrived as well. Minho avoided Jisungs eyes and kept looking down.

"So.. What do you want to talk about?" Minho mumbled.

"I think I remember more now. I need you to complete the empty spaces so I understand everything."

"I don't think you have to understand everything, Jisung.."

"But I want to!"

Minho just nodded and Jisung started explaining. He said that he remembered some of the good times they both had together and he remembered how they ended up splitting apart. He remembered writing Minho all those letters until he couldn't take it anymore and decided to end it. Minho just listened to the younger one and looked down. Jisung kept telling him what he remembered and hoped for Minho to show any kind of reaction. Then he stopped talking and waited for the older one to say something.

"So you remember that you wanted to kill yourself because I was an idiot. What is there to talk about? You know everything you have to know. I'll leave then."

Minho wanted to go, but Jisung held him back.

"Please wait.. I do have some questions."

"What?"

"Why did you push me away from you? If I remember things right I just wanted to see you.."

"You're stupid." Minho mumbled and looked Jisung directly in the eyes "It's because I would only hurt you. My life is messed up and I damaged yours more than enough already."

Jisung felt slightly uncomfortable by Minho's glare, but tried not to show it and be strong "That's dumb. I think I am old enough to decide who to hang out with."

"Listen. Before you met me everything was fine, right? I am the reason you started having problems and in the end I was the reason you wanted to die. You should just stay away from me!"

"Why did you come back then? Why did you take care of me when I came out of the hospital? Why were you nice to me when you could've just stayed away from me?"

"Why? I don't know! I just wanted to make things better and- I don't know. Sorry for coming back.." Minho's eyes then drifted to the floor again and his voice sounded weaker and more quiet again.

"You don't understand, huh? You were not the problem to begin with! I had much fun with you and finally didn't sit around at home all day. When you were as horrible as you say you are, why would I have tried to contact you? Why did I constantly want to talk to you and be with you? Why am I even now still trying to see you? Don't you understand?"

"No. No I don't understand. Why would you want to be with someone as messed up as me?"

"I care about you! I want to spend time with you because I feel comfortable around you! I like you and want to be close to you! Do you get it?"

"Shut up.." Minho mumbled quietly.

"No! Don't you understand that I want to be around you?"

"Shut up!" Minho shouted then "Stop caring about someone like me! Stop caring about someone who couldn't even save you! Don't you get that with me your life gets worse every day? You have friends who are there for you when you need them. Why would you want to be with someone who runs away as soon as things get complicated? I don't want to talk anymore, Jisung. Go home. Stop wasting your time with me. Please. Just go."

Minho got quieter with every sentence and turned around as tears started building up in his eyes.

"Let me go." he added as he noticed that Jisung was still holding his hand.

"One last thing. Then I'll let you go. You can't decide who you care about. It just happens. Minho.. I know it was you who came to the bridge and called me. You tried to save me. I bet you also sent those anonymous messages. You tried everything you could. I know that you came to the hospital every day and I know that you would never hurt me on purpose. I know that you're actually a good human being. You just turned the wrong way at some point. I know you tried to become a better human. Stop blaming yourself for everything. Minho.. I like you. I don't blame you. Please don't be so hard on yourself.. Please."

Now Jisung let go of Minho's hand.

Author's note:
Okay I am not satisfied with this chapter at all! But hey, they gotta talk at some point. I hope I didn't repeat myself too often and that the stuff I wrote made sense.
Also as I run out of ideas, I think I'm really going to write the last parts and finish this book. I don't even know why so many people read this crap but thanks and don't worry, it's over soon
(also yes I know I am very late with my updates but I just wrote this chapter right now because i am a master of procrastination.)