You are never alone. {ON HOLD}

chapter18

Liam's POV:

Couple days later the boys and I were chilling at our place, playing on the xbox. "YES. I'm the master !' Louis said as he threw his hands in the air throwing the remote next to him. 'Let's play another one' Harry said, Louis looked at him 'the battle is on Styles' he said, it was the four of us against Louis. The weather today sucked so we were playing games already the whole afternoon. Suddenly Olivia ran inside and put the game on pause, she was out of breath. 'Liv, what's up ?' Louis questioned worried, 'I was looking for Liam, I thought he was at Emma her place so I went there, I knocked on the door and the door wasn't closed so I went inside and--' she stopped talking to concentrate on her breathing, bet she ran really quickly to here. Harry and I both stood up, something was wrong with Emma. None of us heard her the last days 'and what Liv ?' I questioned laying my hand on her shoulder 'I walked to the living room and she laid in the couch, she didn't move and her house is full of bottles alcohol and medication' Olivia said as she had a panic attack, we tried to calm her down 'was she still breathing ?' Niall questioned worried, Olivia put up her shoulders 'I immediately came here' she said, I looked at Harry as we both nodded short and ran outside to Emma her home. Why did she do this !? Did she tried to kill herself !? Harry and I ran inside and to be honest I didn't even expected it to be this worse..I was really shocked when I came inside the living room, it seemed Emma has been drinking every single day and also took pills.. 'she's still breathing' Harry said 'I'ma get the car' he continued as he searched for Emma her keys and I took her in my arms as I laid a blanket on her, she was cold. Harry quickly drove to the hospital as I held her close to me, rubbing her back the whole time, but she just laid 'dead' in my arms, not moving, you could barely see she was still breathing. As soon as we arrived at the hospital Harry and I kinda ran inside, we ran inside in the emergency ward. Normally you have to wait but we shouted for a doctor. 'we need help !' I shouted, we got a nurse her attention, she looked at us and her face expression got serious, which is normal cause Emma was just laying in my arms, not moving. She shouted something I didn't understand cause I was in panic, another nurse came with a hospital bed followed by a doctor, I laid Emma on the bed 'we found her like this, her room was full with alcohol and we think she took different stuff of medication. She problaby has been like this for already couple days' I said when I laid her down on the bed, they nodded and went away with her. I went with my hands through my hair 'fuck' I hissed, Harry leaned against the wall and took a deep breath. He called Niall telling we were at the hospital and they better all stay there since we don't want a lot of media around this and if everyone would be here they'd find out soon. We waited for 3 hours when the doctor finally came to us. Harry was holding a coffee in his hand as we were both sitting in the seat that stood in the hallway. I was leaning with my head against the wall closing my eyes and my arms crossed. 'excuse me' the doctor said, I quickly opened my eyes, looked at Harry as we then both looked at the doctor. 'can I ask you some questions ?' the doctor questioned, I nodded he took a seat next to us, 'do you know why she has done this ?' he questioned, I shook my head disappointedly. 'did she tried to kill herself ?' he questioned, why asking all these things ? I pulled up my shoulders again, 'you think that was her meaning ?' I questioned worried, the doctor sighed and stood up as he nodded lightly. 'yes, we had to drain her stomach' he said 'she's awake now, but still very weak..she's not talking to us, she's staring at the ceiling and crying the whole time..' he continued, I heard in his voice he was worried, 'can I see her ?' I questioned, the doctor nodded short 'you can go Harry if you want, I'll call you soon' I said as we hugged each other 'greet her from me' he said smiling weakly, I nodded shortly and he left as I followed the doctor to Emma her room. He opened the door for me and closed it behind me. She looked terrible, her face was pale white, she looked exhausted. 

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the sound of the heartmachine was the only thing you could hear Emma was actually alive and breathing... I walked up to her bed and looked at her as I sighed, as soon as she saw me, she looked my way and she looked surprised 'why are you h-here ?' she questioned weakly, I could barely hear her talk so weak was she. 'Liv found you and she came to us and then Harry and I brought you to the hospital..' I said calmly, I felt a finger touching my hand, I looked down and saw it was her hand, I smiled and held her hand as I rubbed it with my thumb 'what were you thinking Emma ? Why have you done this ? Did you try to kill yourself or something ?' I questioned, Emma looked away and cried really hard, I sat down on her bed, pulled her up and hugged her tightly as I was rubbing her back, she burried her face in my neck and cried her heart out. 'shh' I whispered, I didn't let her go until she stopped crying. Then I laid her back down, she held my hand again, I kissed the palm of her hand 'don't do this to me again Emma, I thought I lost you...when I came inside I thought I was too late, but when I felt your heartbreathing I had hope again, not much cause every second your heartbeat got weaker and weaker..why Emma ? Why ?' I questioned as my voice broke down. The idea of losing her hurts me so bad, I don't know if I would survive that. She took a deep breath and tried to hold her tears, 'I don't know..I had so much on my head, I just wanted to forget everything for a while so I drunk bit, then I couldn't sleep and I took sleeping pills, continued drinking and I didn't stop until couple hours you found me.. I still remember I heard you talking to Liam, but I just couldn't open my eyes or react. I was waiting to die' she said, tears rolled down my cheeks, she laid her hand on my cheek and wiped the tears away, I laid my hand on hers as I kissed the palm of it again 'promise you won't do that ever again' I said, she nodded as she stuck out her pinky, I smiled lightly and crossed our pinkies.