I was never really yours to begin with. If you said it once, you said it a million times: you can never be tied down or committed in a relationship as you don't do relationships. I thought I could change your mind, make you fall in love with me the same way I fell deep and desperately in love with you. I thought it was working for a while at least until other women were entering and exiting your life. Then how you slowly closed me off day by day. I heard less and less from you and then the day came: the day where all contact was lost and you had moved on without a second glace.
I was never yours to begin with I should have listened to you and the heart break could have been avoided. Hence, there is a heart size hole in my chest as you stole it the moment I met you and got lost in your ocean eyes. The moment you left I knew my life would never be the same. No matter the memories or fun moments we shared together I was just another notch in your belt and thats all I would ever be but you, you were the love of my life who killed my soul and you added my heart to your collection. You tore my life apart as you move on with your life growing stronger as you suck the lives out of other hopeless romantic women who fall head over heels in a heartbeat trying to catch a glimpse of your humanity.
I should have walked away when you said "I wouldn't make it out alive" but I was so naive. Yet here you are standing in front of me face to face your sadistic orbs staring right back at mine. I ask "why do you want to see me bleed?" and "why do you want to see me break and fall apart?" You replied "it's just the way I was raised". From that moment onwards I knew I wouldn't follow you into the dark abyss that was your heart and soul.
So, as I stare at my bruised and battered body, I take the next step into a better future and out of your life.
