I have always wondered what I looked like from another persons perspective as we only see ourselves in cameras and mirrors but never in person. But then I met you.
My life had always been steady. I was secure in my career and in my social life I was a butterfly. Like most people: I had happy days and I had crappy days because that was just life.
Then I met you.
November 23rd was the day my life was flipped. The day I met you. The day you turned laughter into cries, happiness into terror. I loved me with all your heart but you couldn't return the feelings. From that day onwards there was only bad days. The swirls of pain, terror, and heartbreak were constantly hitting me with no remorse. Like you did.
I lost my job for "underperforming" as I was getting sleepless nights filled with nightmares which impacted horribly on my work. Therefore, my boss fired me and I wouldn't explain what was wrong. I lost my social life as I was so afraid of what people might say if they found out about you.
You turned me into a shell of my former self. As I sat there staring at the same four walls with the horrid floral wallpaper (that was peeling at the edges) for most of the day whilst you were living your pretend life with no shame or guilt. You thought you were protecting me but you were the one that damaged me from the start.
Then the day came where I had lost the will to speak. You thought you had ruined me and so I was no longer worthy of your time or love. You went out and got yourself a replacement. I was no longer needed as you proved -right in front of me.
You thought you had won, that you had successfully broken me. But I guess you never really knew me at all because when you treated me like that it only pushed me harder and when you broke my soul and my self-worth I grew got stronger.
Now I look in the mirror and smile. I had no idea how incredible I was, until I met you.
