Breathe in, breathe out.
Trying not to scream aloud.
Can't take this feeling.
Numbness deep with in.
I ate too much,
But I can't explain.
Swear to myself,
It won't happen again.
Lost control.
I can regain.
Undo the memory.
Remove the blame.
Cleanse the darkness inside my soul.
Purify, rectify.
All the guilt that I swallowed whole.
Can't seem to find myself inside.
Force my knees down, against the ground.
Hide the noise.
Disguise the sound.
Purge my mistakes, until they erase,
The scars that keep my wrists so bound.
Worthless.
Empty.
Run the blade all over me.
Metallic taste.
Acidic coat.
Fingertips shoved right down my throat.
My knuckles bleed, as they try to resist.
Find a reason to stop, a reason to persist.
Enduring life.
Pursuing pain.
Make me raw.
Make me feel again.
Cleanse the darkness inside my soul.
Purify, rectify.
All the guilt that I swallowed whole.
Can't seem to find myself inside.
Force my knees down, against the ground.
Hide the noise.
Disguise the sound.
Purge my mistakes, until they erase,
The scars that keep my wrists so bound.
Feed the yearning.
Embrace the burning.
And whispering, from the voice within.
Shake and shudder, just pull me under.
Submerge me in this erasure.
Shake and shudder, just pull me under.
Purge my mistakes, until they erase,
All my failures.
