remember
when we went
to that forest
i closed myself off
yet stayed beside you
because i wanted to
spend one last time
with you?i remember
you wanted to fix things
while all i ever thought about
was breaking everything in sight
because i was tired
of loving you
when all you ever did
was make me crydo you remember
asking me to hold your hand,
wanting to embrace me
but all i ever did
was tell you
i didn't want to?because i remember
an hour after that,
you broke down
and i swear
that was the first time
my heart physically ached
for someone else in painso it didn't matter what i wanted
it didn't matter that i knew
what i had to do
and that was to leave younone of that mattered
in that single moment
because i realized back theni loved you
and seeing you in tears
broke my heartyou and i have been connected
from the moment that we met
and honestly, i wonder to this day
if that will ever changeit scares me
i will never find
anyone like you
love anyone like you
connect with anyone like youit scares me
i'll cease to remember
a time when i didn't need you
to make myself not want to diebut what scares me even more
is that you'll forget about me
and live a happy life
with someone making you smile
all the fucking time