【 clouds 】

the love you gave...

kissing the cold hard ground
and it hurts to be around you
i know we both know
this is the end of this fake love
we drowned ourselves into

i'm afraid of the consequences
of our mistakes
but i can't take away
what i did and how you made me feel

i really wish the birds would fly
'cause they keep calling my name
and it makes me feel ashamed
i don't know what to say

oh, i really think i'm messed up
in my head and now i'm even worse
than yesterday because you're gone
and you gave up before i even did

but did i really?
i guess not
since i'm writing this
at three in the morning

it's not even poetry
it's just a little bit of the story
you and i shared
for a solid month

and it's okay
to not feel okay
missing your warm touches
on my skin and how it used to
burn something from within me
like my heart drenched in gasoline

and your tongue inside my mouth
was the fire
but you're a liar
and a pretty one at that
the most dangerous kind
if you ask me

you don't ask me
'cause we don't talk no more

honey, isn't it funny?

i told you just last night
that i'm so happy you exist
and you didn't say a thing
'cause you hate me now

and i know it, i know
i'm tired of your pathetic jokes
it was all for showall for show
every single thing was all for show

all for show

well, at least
now, i know

and it's the pain
that comes fast
when it's dark
and it's cold
and you don't really
want to be alone

it's those nights
when you lay awake
trying to think of things
that could make you stay
in this world
you say you hate

it's that time
when you realize
the person you'd give
your entire life for
doesn't give a fuck
about you at all

but you need to
pick yourself up
'cause you're stronger
than what he thinks
you are and you know
yourself so much better

so darling, please listen
just hear my words
honey, you need to breathe
it's okay, it's alright
we know it's gonna be
one hell of a night

but you've been through worse
and honestly, you could do
so much better if you just
learned to love yourself
a little bit more, honey

you deserve the love you gave

him