Destiny or Coincidence?

Chapter 21

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Athira Patel

I just stood there shocked to the core remembering what just happened by placing both of my hands on my mouth. My mind went blank for a few seconds thinking about the kiss between me and Dev. Never in my wildest dreams have I thought that this day will come and I have to face this kind of situation. Hell, I never even thought that Dev will have feelings for me. What the hell is happening with me these days and me being the centre of all these kind of situations?

This is so wrong.. We shouldn't be doing this. Why did I even encourage him kissing me in the first place? Why did I even respond to him? What is wrong with me?

Oh my god. I have kissed my best friend.... This is so wrong...

My mind started repeating the same words again and again about how wrong it is. I felt like to shout from the top of my lungs and to run away to the far end corner for some peace.

Tears started flowing down my eyes thinking of it and I felt like a slut responding to the kisses to everyone. I looked up when Dev called me from where he is standing looking all concerned and sad at the same time. By the look on his face, even he too regretted after doing it and was feeling hurt by seeing my reaction to this. He started coming closer when I shook my head saying not to come any further.

"Please don't cry Athira," He said coming forward looking all broken and hurt and at the same time feeling sad for me. But I am not in a position to be near him and register anything in my mind. I want him to leave me alone presently. I need some time to grasp all of this mess and to get a grip on my feelings. It felt as if someone was covering my nose with their hands by blocking me not to take any air but found myself doing this and then removed my hands by folding them in front of me as a shield while clutching my shirt tightly to keep me from breaking down.

"Leave me alone Dev. Please don't come near to me" I said after founding my voice while crying.

"Athira please..." he again started to explain to make me control but it did quite the opposite to me. Why can't he see that I want to be left alone and get my brain to peace.

"I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE DEV" I shouted looking at him seriously with a tear-stained face. I can see that he is shocked by listening to me. In fact, even I was shocked because never in my life have I shouted at him like this. But presently I'm not in a mood to make it correct. I want some peace. "Please, I need some space to grasp all this." I again said trying to explain even though I am not in a mood to explain anything.

He looked at me for a few more moments before nodding his head and turned around walking and closing the door behind him leaving me alone.

Once he left the room I fell on the bed placing my face in the pillow and started crying thinking of all the events these past weeks. I feel so dirty that I hate myself for it. What if Dev thought that I have feelings for him? Oh god... I don't even know why in the first place I have reacted to his kiss. I never felt anything to him after Akash chapter. It was just a crush in my teenage years but now I see Dev as just my good friend.

Then why in the hell did I kiss him back? Dammit. It's all so confusing.

I shouted in the pillow to cover my sounds and to release all my frustration. But still, it's the same. I want to slap myself repeatedly for doing this.

I cried giving in to my emotions for some more moments without holding back.

I really need to talk with someone to get clarity on my emotions and my first thought is of Riya. But I felt as if she betrayed me by keeping a secret of Dev's. So I just ignored talking with her presently.