A sad love story

Alone

A few days past. Nothing changed... I was still upset normally, I'm over a break up the next day but... this is different. I'm still in so much pain.

Everyday I walk by him in school and, he's happy. I'm glad that he's happy but, I wish I was the one making him happy. I wish I was still with him. But, sometimes you have to let go. Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love so, they can grow.

I stopped going to school again and, I stopped eating. I also pushed myself away from people. My medication wasn't working anymore. I was numb. My depression and anxiety started taking over me again. This time worse than before. Everyday I would push myself to not kill myself. I couldn't live without him I... I... I just couldn't. My smile and laugh disappeared. The once happy girl was long gone.
If I did go to school (which was once every few weeks) I would see him and break. I didn't listen to the teacher. I didn't try at all. My marks went down I, went from doing great in school to, not passing all my classes.

A month goes by slowly. How did the time with him pass so soon but, the time without him is in slow motion. My face was red due to tears. I've never been much of a crier but, now I cry over small things.
Everyday I would have a panic attack so bad, I started ripping out my hair. The pain was so bad worse than, any injuries I've had. The pain wouldn't go away no matter what.
"Grace are you okay?"
My friends would always say to me.
"Ya I'm fine"
I would reply trying not to cry.

A month and seven days.
Without him. They said each day would get better but, it just gets worse. The feeling of his hands in mine is gone. Every memory plays through my head 24/7 even, when I'm sleeping. I can't get away from it. But there is one way that I can...