A sad love story

Don't be a dream

I tried sitting up and almost fell off the bed but, the doctor caught me.
"Grace you have to stay laying down"
They say pushing me down
"No pee I have to"
My words don't go together well. Trying to sit up again I fall. My mom and sister pulled me up helping me stand. They take me to the bathroom.
"Grace wake up"
I hear my mom say. Did I fall asleep? Wow. They help me back up and bring me to my bed.
"Let's start a fourth bag of fluids"
The doctor hangs another bag.

I look up beside me and see him.
"Hi Grace"
He says smiling. I reach my hand up and touch his face. A tear rolls down my eye. Is he really here? Does he actually care? The questions go through my head.
"I love you Grace. And I want you back."
He says to me. The words calm me and, I shake my head smiling.
"Come with me Grace. We can go to Korea like you wanted."
I say yes. He's really taking me back.

"Her heart rate is dropping, we are going to lose her"
I hear a doctor. My eyes open and he's gone.
"No!!"
I shouted. Not sure if I actually said it or not. Pain shot into my chest. It was just a dream. Please no.
"It's okay Gracie"
My aunt says putting her hand on my face. I just wanted him that's all. Why couldn't I be enough. Why was I so worthless. All of a sudden everything goes black and I wake up in a different room.
"Good morning Grace"
My mom says holding my hand. I look around. Why am I still here? I don't want to be.
I pull my hand away and face away from my mom. Then the doctor walked in.
"Okay Grace we will be checking up on you."
They put something on my finger and arm. I lay there emotionless.
"The councillor is coming in to see you soon"
"Okay"
I replied. Once the doctor left I looked to my mom.
"Can I have my phone?"
She reaches into her bag.
"It was still in the school your dad went and got it for you."
She says giving me my phone.
When I open my phone I see no messages. No one ever texts me. I text my best friend and tell him what happened.

** a few days later**
I'm still in this boring hospital. My mom comes and sees me once a day and, two of my friends have came and seen me so far. But, the one person I want to see hasn't came yet. Him all I want is to see him and, be in his arms.
"I want to call him."
I tell my mom with tears in my eyes.
"Okay."
She says handing me the phone with his number, already typed in. As the phone starts ringing more tears flow down my face. I haven't cried since I got here...
"Hi is ___ there?"
I ask.
"Yes here he is."
After a few seconds I hear his voice.
"Hello?"
As soon as I hear his voice I break down in tears.
"It's Grace."
I try and stop crying but I can't.
"Oh... hi."
He says.
"I'm in the hospital right now and, I really want to see you. Is there anyways you can come and see me?"
I ask with a shaky voice. I didn't know what to say all I knew is that I wanted to talk to him.
"I can't... I'm really busy I'm sorry."
I break down
"Look I still love you and I always will. I'm sorry for leaving I just, I knew it would be better for you."
Everything came out. I didn't know what I was saying anymore.
"I love you too."
He says back and the tears start flowing even more.
"I can't talk on the phone right now but, you can text me."
He actually wants to talk to me.
"Okay."
A smile forms on my face.
"I love you bye"
I haven't heard him say that in awhile. I never thought I would hear him say that again. I say it back and hang up. Still crying I put down the phone. My mom walks in and hold me in her arms.  I smile thinking that he still loves me.

As the days go by I wait. Maybe he will come see me. He did say that he loves me so he might. His words gave me hope and, made me want to get better so, I could see him. After a week and a half I was let free. Walking into school was weird. Everyone looked at me with sadness. When I walked into my class room everyone hugged me. Why would they care about me when I almost died but, not when I was living and in pain? People make no sense. I just smiled and said thank you and sat down. At lunch I went to go talk to him and he ignored me. The next day I tried again and he ignored me once more. My heart was slowly breaking again. A week after trying I lost hope. I talked to a friend of ours about it.
"He doesn't want to get back with you. He doesn't love you anymore."
"But he said..."
Tears start forming in my eyes
"Never mind I don't care"
I walk away and go home. As soon as I get home I run downstairs and cry. He said that he did... why would he lie to me? He never really loved me. I cried until the next day.
"Grace get up and go to school"
I roll over and cover my face.
"I'm not feeling well."
Under my eyes were stained red. My face was swollen.
"Okay."
My mom says walking out. My door shut and tears roll down my face again.
"If I sleep maybe I can get away from the pain and, thought of him."
I told myself. So I closed my eyes soon falling asleep. There was no way out anything I did I, got reminded of him. He was in my dreams and, I would wake up crying. Anytime I went somewhere I tried to make it look like I was okay. When I walked by him I made sure to laugh and, smile. So it looked like I was fine. But without him I'm nothing.

I promised him that I would love him forever and, I kept my promise.
He promised me that he would love me forever and, he didn't keep his promise.
I told him that I would die without him. And I did...
I told him that I can't live without him and, I can't.
This isn't living all it is, is surviving and, waiting until I die.
But with him, I was living.

I'll always love you I promise.