If I Die [BTS X ARMY]

1. ONE ARMY GIRL

"And this year's Deasang of the year goes to... BTS!" The presenter announced to the hopping crowed. After the announcement the crowed went crazy, and I too jumped up and down on my bed but with as minimal of a sound as I could make, so as to produce as little noise as possible. The bubbles in my stomach were on high, it felt like I listend to euphoria for the very first time.

The screen displayed a very humble BTS going on the stage, waving around their hands, looking around, specially Armys and a bright smile adorned thier face as if they just revived their lover. But we all knew the only lovers at this moment in time were only BTS and Armys.

Some Armys were crying, singing in chorus to the hit song of BTS which was playing in the background of the event. I had tears in my eyes, they bowed to everyone, not caring if they were staff or the camera man. When they reached the stage, I expected Namjoon to have the Mic, but Jin beat him to it. Which I already knew, because you know, spoilers?

The first word he said was "Arrmmyy!!!" and I felt loved, that one emotion which I was craving so much from my family, but this seven people who don't even know me! Want me to live, to the people like me, to all the unfortunate people like me. All the other members were waving and making hearts to the camera and the crowed.

It was six in the morning, when I found that my friend sent me the whole video of this years Soribada Award. I was so happy I could have screamed so hard that all the glasses in the house would be laying in pieces, with three bodies whose death would be caused by brain explodtion.

But fortunately, I didn't let that happen as I only scremed in my lovely fluffy and puffy pillows. If I wouldn't have, then definitely, the one laying dead would be me, as Mother hates BTS and she would kick my ass for lossing my mind.

I unfortunately couldn't watch the show live, when it was broad casted. Since mom, Misoo and Jong Dae wouldn't let me see the show. How unfortunate of a fate that I have! I cursed my fate.

They are huge haters of BTS, yeah unfortunately the very people I fight on the net, I live with them. I don't know, why fate likes to spit on my face.

I sighed.

I still don't understand, why? Why do they hate them? The very people who have done nothing wrong but gave their daugther hope, love and escape to peace. The very someone, who they don't know? Without even knowing how the person actually is? What are their personalities like and what are they teaching to the people?

That just makes them such a figure in this unjustified world, a world of prejudice.

Mom doesn't hate them though, that's my thoughts about her. She just doesn't like the fact of me going crazy over something, liking screaming, defending and talking so lovingly about the people I never knew personally. I dont blame her, if I didn't meet BTS, then I too would think I was messed up in the head.

Mom is ill, and she thinks of me even in her sick state. But I knew this too, if you don't agree with others opinion, then there is no need to push those opinions or suck rude behaviours, in the name of love. But yet again, I should think more about her, more then anything else, more then myself.