Pick A Side

Part 2

"But sometimes, when you choose not to pick a side, you have essentially picked a side."

"What? How does that even make any sense?", his face was nothing but bewilderment.

How do you even go about explaining this without sounding like you are making a mountain out of a molehill?

"Y/N, I'm fine with girls being jealous and all but the one thing I cannot stand is you throwing a tantrum by threatening to break up with me. I don't do this break up and get back together thing. If we are breaking up, it will be for good... so... are you sure? That we are worth less than this argument you had with Jihyun? Are you sure that you are prepared to give us up over something like this?", he reasoned as if he was giving you a second chance to backpedal.

"I'm trying to tell you that you have already picked your side, Taehyung, but if you don't see it that way then fine, I'm telling you again... not everything has a middle ground. And this time, you have to choose one. So... will you be on my side?", you threw the second chance card back at him.

Taehyung was obviously annoyed by now, he looked nothing less than he was about to curse at your stupid insistence on this.

"There's no need to answer me anymore", you shook your head in disappointment as you left.

—

He was serious about what he said too. He never contacted you again after that night. You weren't sure if he really was in your life this whole time. The only times you were sure you actually did date him were when you opened your chat with him and went through the old messages. If you were hurting this much, it must have happened, right?

Needless to say, the news of the break up spread fast and furious, given Taehyung's popularity, and so did the rumours as to the reasons why.

Y/N is such a petty girlfriend. Y/N was jealous of Jihyun. Can't Taehyung even have friends now just because he is dating Y/N? Taehyung deserves better... She's so selfish...

There were so many, to the extent that even you became aware of them despite how ill-informed you usually were of the gossip around school.

The first lesson you learnt from this was that giving in to someone becomes something taken for granted over time. Because you did it once, because you did it twice, you are expected to always do it. And when you choose to not do it, when you took a stand for yourself, you became the mean one, the selfish one, the petty one.

"Oh please, who doesn't share such videos nowadays, it's even in the news. I heard Y/N was just being overly sensitive and got upset that Taehyung didn't side with her." You were sitting in a corner of the library trying to focus on the textbook in front of you when you overheard the conversation between two of your classmates behind the bookshelf that blocked them from seeing you there. The third time this week.

Lesson two: the entire world would simply conclude that you were not worth supporting, because the one person that everyone presumed would or should have sided with you, chose not to.

Not once did you try to clarify or defend yourself. How do you stand up against the rest of the world by yourself? Where do you even start? Who was going to listen to you? What is the point anymore?

When you believed that nobody would take your side, you too, have abandoned it.

All that was left was your desperation and desire for the world to move on, to leave you alone.

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And alone you were. You didn't have many friends in school to begin with, the only few you had were closer to Taehyung than they were to you.