always been you~emilio martinez

After

Emilio and I have talked since he and nels fought.

I feel like what he did was really wrong.

We dont sleep in the same room much less speak to each other. We dont make eye contact and most times it's like we dont even breathe the same air.

But one morning I guess he couldn't handle it anymore.

"You know what nicole I can't do this anymore. I apologise I regret what I did you can stop treating like a fucking shadow"

I turned around and looked at him standing on the opposite side of the island that sat in the middle of the kitchen.

"So your done? Your not going to speak. Fucking talk to me nic I'm tired of this fucking silent treatment"

I shook my head a little

"And what the hell am I supposed to say Emilio huh? You want me to forgive you? Tell you it's fine that you beat up my bestfriend. Because you were jealous and you couldn't trust me? That's not my fucking problem"

"We are in a fucking relationship nicole"

"Are we emilio?" I turn away from Emilio and wipe at my eyes.

I quickly walk around the island and head for the kitchen exit

"No you dont get to walk away nicole you dont get to do that you can't come into my life make me care and then leave"

I walked out into the living room to see everyone huddled up by the entrance.

I tried to talk but I was afraid I was going to cry so I quickly made my way upstairs and into my room to pack my bags

When I finished I walked downstairs to see Emilio on the couch with a bandage wrap on his hand

I walked to the front door and put my bags there and I got everyone's attention

"I um- I'm leaving I'm going to stay with a friend and I dont think I'm going to come back so I just wanted to say bye to everyone"

"So that's it? Your just leaving did I even matter to you nicole. I gave you my all I loved you I made sure you were safe and comfortable and you just fucked me over. How could you?"

"I'm not doing this anymore Emilio I'm done. I can't be with you of everyone I talk to or touch triggers you. I just. I need to go"

I hurriedly rushed out of the front door with all of my belongings and I made my way to Starbucks where I called a uber to take me to troye's house

When I arrived at troyes house I thanked the uber and knocked rapidly on the front door.

"Hey nic what's up?"

"I I I "

I could get the words out of my mouth because I had already started crying.

"Nic it's ok we can figure something out tomorrow I promise"