rosy cheeks // joshler + tysh // ddlb

josh's prolouge

"momma! i'm home!" josh shout through the house.

"oh! my baby!"

as josh walks into the living room he's greeted by his loving mother. she wraps him up in a big bear hug, kissing his cheek.

"you're never allowed to work eleven hours again, mister! i missed you so much!"

they hug once more, josh laughing as laura kisses his cheek again repeatedly.

"i know, i know. now get off me!" he laughs, his eyes squinting.

"i'm sorry, josh, but you know i get lonely without you at home!"

rolling his eyes, josh scoffs playfully.

"i'm only a ten minute drive if you ever feel the need to drop in and say hello! you know that, right?"

his mother leads him into the living room, nodding.

"oh i know, but it's just not the same."

the pink haired boy nods, giving his mom one more hug.

"i need to go upstairs and start some of my online class. love you, i'll have some dinner in an hour."

"okay, josh. love you too."

josh sprints up the stairs and into his room. he shut the door softly before jumping onto his bed. he buries himself in his stuffed animals and fluffy comforter.

and cries.

he cries and cries and cries.

"m'wanna g-go away." he cries to himself.

josh had secretly been fighting what he thinks to be depression, and it's killing him every day. the pain he goes through just because of his mind was torture. he just couldn't do it.

"why me?"

he sits up, grabbing his favorite stuffed animal. a ty baby one. it was a grey and white giraffe that he named alex. josh hugs it to his chest with a quiet sniffle.

"love you, alex." he whispers as he swings his legs over the bed. he stands up and walks over to his desk.

he opens one of the drawers, that, from first glance looks normal, but if you dig deeper into it you'll find out it's not. that drawer hold his pacifiers, sippy cup, and his bottle when he's feeling small enough to need it.

josh takes his currently favorite paci and the sippy cup. he quietly walks out of his room and to the kitchen. filling up the sippy cup with grape juice, the pink haired boy runs back up the stairs to his room.

the boy gets his computer from his desk and turns off the light. opening netflix, josh starts ralph breaks the internet. he gets settled in his bed with his sippy, paci, and stuffie. once josh finished the juice, he places the paci in his mouth.

the movie was about halfway over once he fell asleep, dreaming of the day he would feel like himself again.

happy.