Not Young Anymore(Ness x Lucas)

Hurts Like Hell

((WARNING: References to Self harm, self hate, and insecurities of the body image. If you feel you can't read this sort of content, feel free to skip))
Ana's Pov

I wonder...where did I go wrong.

I was sitting on a bench at the park. It was dark and cold. I practically looked like a ghost sitting there, waiting for something to happen.

Well, I am waiting for something to happen. Actually I'm waiting for someone.

I'm waiting for him.

Ninten hasn't spoke to me nor has he texted me in a while. In fact, I haven't seen him at all. He just disappeared. It's like...he's avoiding me. Maybe he found someone else. He probably doesn't like me anymore. He probably hates me. Or maybe he is avoiding everyone. I don't know. I just want to see his precious smile again. I miss him.

I miss him...

Everything about him. His attitude, smile, voice, eyes...his touch. I miss his 'not give a damn' expression and even his personality. I miss everything.

I sound clingy...

What I feel isn't a obsession, it's love. You ever get that one feeling when someone's gone for to long and you start to worry? Or how about when your lover leaves and you want them to stay? That's how I feel. I just long for him to show his face again. Please God, give me a sign. Tell me he's ok. Tell me he still loves me. Tell me that we'll-

My phone buzzed. I grabbed it a checked.

Ninten!

Ninten: hey where r u at?

Ana: the park.

Ana: why?

Ninten: just wanna talk to u

My heart fluttered.

Ana: Sure!

Ana:☺️

Ana: where have u been?

Ana: U haven't showed in 2 months?

Ninten: oh

Ninten: A lot of stuff has been going on

Ninten: considering its summer and all

Ninten: see ya later

Ana: k

Ana: see ya laters

Ana: love ya

Ana: ☺️😍❤️❤️❤️

I put away my phone and looked down at my feet. My happiness sank. He didn't say I love you back. He didn't even text our 'emoji symbols of love'.

He probably forgot to.

Yeah, maybe he did.

Then again, he never forgets.

No he forgot. That's all there is to it.

What do you think he was doing those 2 months?

Messing around

With another girl?

No.

But, he never-