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Why Would I Do Such A Thing?

Why did I have to do that again??

I know it causes problems but I couldn't resist

I should of let it be

But no! I had to fucking do it..

I could of waited. I have to wait.

The pain isn't that bad

I can live with it

Maybe I should try something else?

Something more effective

But I'm too lazy

I should just stop doing it all together until I die

Why did I have to EAT?

In such a fucking FATTY!

I know I should just kill myself to end my pain

But I deserve to be punished for everything I do wrong

I'm not hungry I tell myself but I know deep inside that I'm starving

Yeah I ate today I tell them

Do they know its a lie?

Do they know that I'm starving myself thin?

I refuse to be my fat self anymore

I want to die skinny

I may think that other people with curves and more are sexy but when I look in the mirror I know, I know that that rule doesn't apply to me.

That rule will never apply to me

And anyway I don't deserve to eat glorious food, or breathe refreshing air.

I deserve to be beaten and starved and not allowed to speak for all of my wrong doings.

I deserve the most painful and stretched out death.

The day that I die shall be the day that I am truly happy.

Happy that nobody will have to put up with me anymore.

Happy that I am not wasting precious oxygen.

Happy that food, glorious food doesn't have to go to waste in providing nutrients for me.

Death is the only way out that we can afford.