IM SORRY... (Sanders Sides) Virgil x Roman

Chapter 8

Double update YAY!

I grab him and hold on for dear life, I pull him up and hold him to my chest crying my eyes out.

I keep repeating I'm sorry and I almost lost you and it's all my fault and I should have known and I'm sorry and I'm sorry and ''I'm sorry!. I look down at him noticing him staring up at me with tears threatening to escape his eyes. I cry even more.

Virge Im so sorry that I didn't notice. I'm so happy that I caught you before you fell, because I wouldnt know what to do with myself. I raise one of my hands keeping the other one tight around his body and whip the tears that are pouring down my face just for new ones to fill the place.

I should have realized that you felt like this, you got so distant, why didn't I realize? I'm so stupid!

Roman Virgil says quietly, his voice cracking. I ignore him.

I should have seen all the signs, you rarely came out of your room, you are quieter in the Sandersides videos. I'm such an idiot!

Roman Virgil tries again.

I was too distracted to try and find a way to talk to you when all you needed was someone. Why didn't I talk to you earlier?! This is all my fault.

Roman Virgil says louder this time.

I just wanted to tell you that I'm like, in love with you. And Because I was too scared to talk to you I almost would have never had a chance, so I love you Virgil, I love you with all my heart.

I finally stop talking but so does Virgil, he looks at the infinity void that is still there and closes his eyes. Slowly It starts to disappear. He looks back up at me.

Really? he says in the smallest voice I've ever heard in my life.

Of course silly, what's not to love? He looks away and starts shaking indicating he is crying. Virgil Im so sorry I let this happen to you. You're safe now. I hold him tighter than before, if that's even possible and he buries his head into my shoulder and starts sobbing. I start humming a soft song to him to help him calm down.

After a few minutes of him crying he looks up at me.

I never knew that someone would ever feel like that towards me." I whip is tears off his right cheek.

Well believe it, because I do. He continues to look at me.

What could you even like about me Im a disorder. He looks away as he says the last part. I gasp. I put my fingers under his chin and tilts his head so he looking back in my eyes.

You are not a disorder, Virgil. You're one of the most important sides that there is. I'm surprised you haven't realized how much we need you. We need you like flowers need water, Thomas needs you to survive. I need you to survive. I start crying again.

Virgil I love you so much, you don't understand. I gently kiss his forehead. Virgil looks surprised at the sudden contact on his forehead but them smiles. He readjusts do that he is facing me and holding my hands. He chuckles a little then sniffles.

What? I ask then i get a sudden realization he doesn't like me back. I'm so sorry Virgil, if you dont like me back please just tell me because I can't stand not knowing how you feel and if you dont feel the same it's fine, I won't force you- I get cut off by his lips smashing into mine. They stay there for a few seconds until he breaks apart.

I was laughing because I've always loved you, and because Ive never seen you cry before. He puts his hand up and wipes my tears away.

We both start leaning in again

Next chapter is the last chapter of the book :(