Worry and fear envelope my brain,
Every time I see your name.
Is this right?
Am I wrong?
Are you just dragging me along?"Watch for lies!"
They all say.
They don't know the worry I have
Every, single day.They repeat what I hear
In my head all the time.
If only every worry I had gave me a dime.I don't want to care.
I don't want to trust.
Afraid to give you control over my emotions,
But seeing you fills me with joy.
I can't be controlled by a boy!Always told they will hurt me,
String me along, and play me.
None of them see
What this fear does to me.Afraid to let go.
I can't let it show.
Afraid to let myself fall.
Scared to trust you at all.Then against myself,
"How can you expect him to trust you,
If you don't trust him?"
I Tell myself, "Just don't go all in."I try to hold back,
But my hold is slipping.
I want to fall for you.
I don't know what to do!Raised this way.
Trained this way!
Don't trust boys.
They treat you like a toy.Wait til you're older.
Then you can see,
How bad they can really be.Told to fear you,
Avoid you, deny you.
Told not to like,
Trained not to want.I shouldn't be struck by fear,
When a guy asks for my number.
I shouldn't be filled with terror,
To be alone with one I trust.Afraid to post this poem.
Afraid it would show.
Afraid they would see it.
Afraid they would know.How I have been scarred
By a life of being barred.
Held back, sheltered,
Hidden, denied.
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P. O. E. M. S.
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