It's already midnight but I'm still wake up,
I can't sleep properly, I can't think properly,
And eat properly because of this anxiety,
My life is mess up and fuck up.
Morning came when somebody told me,
That I'm suffering from depression.
When I heard it, my world stopped
There's a lot of things running in my head.
During those time when I feel so down,
There's no one who stayed by my side, even my family and friends.
They thought that I'm just acting, asking for attention,
But little they didn't know that I'm in pain, that I'm not okay.
It was only me, I and myself who is willing to help me,
At first it was hard, but as time pass by I'm used to it.
Until one day, when I'm finally feel better,
I'm starting to love myself much better, because I know that only yourself who is willing to help you.
I just realized that prioritise yourself first,
before someone else.
Learn from your mistakes, make a mistake once
But not twice.
That's why I don't have to say to many that I'm not okay,
Because they are not care for me, so instead of doing it,
I better stay silent and not let other people involved in my situation. This is my life.
