The broken one

The pain

After Taka left I went to Jean's room. I laid on the bed, I cried fearing I'd lose Jean, and I'd messed up with Taka. I kept texting with Taka. He said somethings, I couldn't understand why. I suddenly forgot about Jean, and cried my heart out about Taka. Jean held me, gave me tissues  wiped my tears. Told me love is tough but I'd find someone. I cried even harder, I didn't want anyone else, I wanted Taka. Sure lots of guys tried but they way me and my wolf felt around him, was nothing like others, I loved it, I craved it. If I couldn't love him I didnt want to love at all. She kept saying how he just said some stupid stuff. I hated when people used that word to describe him, he thought of himself as stupid, I thought of him as a genious in ways no one could see. I said he wasn't stupid, I loved him, that I only wanted him. She said she was sorry but she's not sure it'd work out. I cried till 6 in the morning and eventually passed out till 11 am. I woke up feeling like shit, I drove home. I didn't talk to anyone. I asked Jean if i could be with Taka. She said it wouldn't be wise at all. So I told Taka, he said he agreed with her. I didnt wanna hear that. I wanted to be with him, I loved him and only him, I thought and hoped he was my mate. But we broke up.