With you my conscious person evaporates
Every one of her own thoughts were once ice
And now they're a mist above the sea
This you've seenI am not my own person around you
Because you've convinced me you love me more as an empty shell filled with "yes's" and "okay's"This is not okay
You've taken my individuality
Made me feel less than myself
How will I ever know my worth if I don't have my own eyesI am blind.
You've blinded me
and I have no thoughts remember?
So now I cannot teach myself Braille
You must teach me to learn Braille
But you don't want me to know the truthI'm left blind and mindless
With only your perception of myself
I hate the version of me that you seeTo you I am unknowing
A follower
Weak
And a dependentBut what I will be is the defendant in this case because you've stolen from me.
You stole days of my life that I'll never see again.
You stole my mind
My heart
My sightWith you,
I lost my sight.But when ten feet away from your seed of intolerance
The ocean is less humid than before
Because the mist that was once there
That once collected my thoughts
Has been frozen once again
Planted back in the rich soil of my hungry brainMy eyes?
They open once again
Envisioning all that you embody
And it is ugly.With you my conscious person evaporates.
But without you?
She is fulfilled.
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Cigarettes, sunsets & Daydreams
PoetryThis collection is a representation of the foundational heartbreaks I've experienced through life. It's gut wrenching and trauma filled. Be ready for the ride; I hope you enjoy your time within my mind.