Cigarettes, sunsets & Daydreams

To the military man

With you my conscious person evaporates
Every one of her own thoughts were once ice
And now they're a mist above the sea
This you've seen

I am not my own person around you
Because you've convinced me you love me more as an empty shell filled with "yes's" and "okay's"

This is not okay
You've taken my individuality
Made me feel less than myself
How will I ever know my worth if I don't have my own eyes

I am blind.

You've blinded me
and I have no thoughts remember?
So now I cannot teach myself Braille
You must teach me to learn Braille
But you don't want me to know the truth

I'm left blind and mindless
With only your perception of myself
I hate the version of me that you see

To you I am unknowing
A follower
Weak
And a dependent

But what I will be is the defendant in this case because you've stolen from me.
You stole days of my life that I'll never see again.
You stole my mind
My heart
My sight

With you,
I lost my sight.

But when ten feet away from your seed of intolerance

The ocean is less humid than before
Because the mist that was once there
That once collected my thoughts
Has been frozen once again
Planted back in the rich soil of my hungry brain

My eyes?
They open once again
Envisioning all that you embody
And it is ugly. 

With you my conscious person evaporates.
But without you?
She is fulfilled.