A Knight's Imagination

Falling For Starr: Hurt

     This is a really hurtful moment for me and her. I do'nt know why I even post our love life here. But this is the best way for me to explain how I feel right now.

     Starr I hope your reading this. Do'nt be sad, do'nt cry either please?

     You know I love you and I did'nt lie when I said nothing can stop me from me loving you. I still love you. I know you would'nt lie to me intentionally... so I believe it when you said "I love you hubby". But now that you realize that you still love your ex... I ... still love you. And I will wait. You know me.

     All the things we wanted is still there... everything... nothing was a lie... but you did change. Not change just found out a truth. Truth can hurt sometimes. Do'nt think too much on it.

     Nothing is perfect right? (laughs) your still perfect for me... there has never been something more beautiful in my eyes that can even be compared to you (am I weird?), I know I have promises to keep and I'll keep them all. Only because you want me to still be with you. Even as a friend.

     Theres a lot of things I love. I love to see you smile. I'm thankful you did'nt lie to me. That you told me the story. Thanks. You know Starr? your a messy person.

     I guess I kinda lied too. It did hurt. A whole ton fuck of a lot. But I only said that because I did'nt want you to worry. Besides I know I can get up. Not instantly but faster than others...

     God am I stupid? what do you think Starr? is it stupid that I wo'nt give up? (Laughs) I miss you so much... I've never felt this depressed before. Reminds me of my childhood memories. Do'nt worry about me. Even if I'm hurt, I'm much stronger than you think...

     (Laughs) God I love you so much... Whatever happens I will still be here with you. Do'nt you understand when I said "I love you" ?

     Just try to remember all the things we talked about. Try harder. Are you worried?

     It's me.

     Do'nt you know me?

I will love you and always will.

I will wait for you until the end.

It's a promise.

Only you can stop me. Maybe.

     And to the stranger reader sorry about this thing that you've read. I actually had another thing to send but this one... was more important.

     Hello reader. How was your day? was it shitty? sad? depressing? joke. Mine was... great. You might think I'll just lie on my bed and cry maybe I would. 'Cuz I already did. But... nothing hurts more than seeing the one you care about apologize about something horrible. Not neccesarily horrible. Or seeing them sad basically.

     Life is full of surprises. Sometimes not very good ones. But that's why we have each other. Everything id better with someone. Cry with someone... Laugh, smile, eat, everything should be done with someone. If not... it's just gonna stay sad is'nt it?

     Besides were humans. We make mistakes. We learn things. Notice I said "we". Joke. But seriously.

     Starr... I miss you... sorry reader. I need you you know? I want you... Still were both young. Deep in folly. With a chance to die in melancholy. Sorry I do'nt know what to say anymore. I'm kinda depressed. I just missed you.

     Hey reader. Do you have a girlfriend? at a young age? how sure are you about the decisions you make? God love can be a real itch to the brain. So far I feel like this  is a pretty bad part on the book sorry guys.

     If you want me to continue or answer a comment please tell me. I'm very servile so go ahead.