Do you love me Hansol?

Insecurities and jealousy

Mingyu's POV

A month went by quickly and our distance grew even further. Hansol always had these excuses like "Joshua and I are going the cat cafe together, I just assumed that you didn't want to come since you prefer dogs and if you where there maybe Josh would feel like a third wheel." But the truth is that he wouldn't be the third wheel because the third wheel was already me. They were inseparable, they liked the same kind of music, the same cartoons, they just liked everything the other one liked. And when I tried to get in the conversation they would just make me feel stupid, like how am I supposed to know that South Park isn't an actual park but a cartoon. But I can't tell him about this. What if this is just a jealous boyfriend thing where I'm overreacting or what if everything goes back to before when I almost lost Hansol because of my jealousy. Hansol is my everything but then there are days where I don't feel like I'm Hansol 's everything.

The doorbell rang and I opened the door to see Hansol, I had invited him earlier in the morning to come over and watch a movie and unexpectedly he said yes. It was our first time hanging out alone in over two weeks, I told myself multiple times to not be too excited but it was rather hard to contain myself. He stepped in and gave me a hug before he took off his coat and shoes. Vernon looked cute as usual he wore a big oversized sweater which made him appear much smaller. He then looked at me and asked.
-So how was your day Mingyu?
I replied quickly whilst grabbing his hand to lead him to my bedroom.
-Not so exciting, I was kinda mostly looking forward to see you I guess, how about you?
Hansol looked cutely at me whilst showing his precious gummy smile. He then replied with a happy and excited tone.
-I firstly went to the garden festival with Josh and Seungkwan and then Seungkwan had to go home so Joshua and I went to get some ice cream!
He continued to speak about his adventure with Joshua and I couldn't help to feel the jealousy grow inside of me like a little stone. He was my Hansol not Joshua's Hansol but I wasn't going to let my emotions ruin our evening. Hansol plopped down on my bed and I joined him. I took the remote and I turned on the tv. We decided to watch a documentary about birds, not the most appealing show but it was either that or a horror movie.

-Mingyu, I think I have seen this documentary before, isn't this the one about the kiwi birds, y'know the flightless birds.
This was indeed a kiwi bird documentary, I didn't want to appear invasive but I just felt like asking where he had seen it.
-Yeah it is but I don't have any memory of watching it before, did you watch it by yourself?
Hansol looked at me before speaking excitedly.
-No I watched it with Joshua, he loves birds and documentaries especially turkeys. I find that so funny, like why turkeys?
I couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed by his answer but I quickly snapped out of it and remembered that I promised not to overreact because in the end he truly loved me and only me. But as he continued to speak about Joshua's strange bird interest it got harder and harder to concentrate on not mentioning it.
We continued to watch the movie and about 10 minutes in to it Hansol laid his head in my lap and I started to play with his hair. He looked so peaceful laying there and I couldn't help to say.
-Hansolie I've missed this, I have missed you.
Hansol suddenly looked at me clearly disturbed by my prior words. His voice was showing that he was mildly upset but his expression was still composed.
-Mingyu what do you mean?

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