Once a Maggot, Always a Maggot

A/N please read

Hey CyberSquad. I know I've been absent for a while, and I'm sorry about that. Now, you can read this if you want but I'm going to be talking about why I haven't been updating. This includes:

-bullying
-transphobic/homophobic slurs
-talk of transgenders/other sexuality's
-and about me staying with a guy I shouldn't have for way too long

So anyway on with the "story"?

So this all started around two months ago when I came out to my best friend Wolfe as Gender Fluid. He was very accepting seeing as he is trans. So I then told my boyfriend. (let's call him M) So later that night me and M started talking. It got brought up that he was now dating someone who wasn't "one gender". The conversation was going good until I told him I was going to tell my other friends. Now here's when it gets juicy! M told me that he didn't want anyone else besides him to know (He had no idea Wolfe knew) because he had a "reputation" to keep up, and he was "not Gay Bi or Pan". I let it go thinking that he would get used to it and accept it in time. Boi was I wrong! As the conversation went on he wanted me to send him some selfies. At the time I identified as male so I didn't want to, seeing as I wasn't comfortable with the way I was dressed. He got mad at me and told me that he wasn't going to call me any other pronouns except for She/Her. And that he "wished that our relationship would go back tot he way it was". He also threw in that he "fell in love with the girl/female me, and wasn't comfortable with anything else". I then stopped replying.
Going into school the next day I was emotionally and mentally drained. My depression reached a all time high and my self esteem reached a all time low. I came out to all my friends and they where excepting. At that time I was a they/them (shout out to all the NB peeps out there!) and M didn't like that. I broke up with him shortly after. But I was still madly in love with this asshole for some reason! So a week later we where back together.
But within a two day span of us breaking up, he came out as Pan and had a crush on a girl (let's call her D) called D. She and her friend group had relentlessly bullied me and my best friend for being apart of the LGBTQ+ community and for liking certain kinds of music. Wolfe doesn't know this but she and her friends had continuously called me a "emo faggot". Fun times! So me being the idiot I am, wanted to talk to M at lunch and get back together with him. For 15 minutes I tried talking to him, but to no avail. I started to cry because I saw him flirting with D. So after lunch D came up to me and told me "I was just jealous because M found someone better than me, someone who actually deserves him." Long story short, me and M where back together by the end of the week!
Time skip a few weeks and we are to where things really start to get real. After school one day M went up to my friend Eve (who was already having a bad day) and told her that he hated her and her boyfriend's relationship, and that he was trying to end it. She started to cry and he kept going at her. Soon her boyfriend JJ came around and punched M in the side. JJ got suspended for two days while M got a petty party from everyone. He then told me to "stop hanging out with Wolfe because SHE is lying about her sexuality. And that SHE only wanted the popularity". And I lost it. So first of all! He used Wolfe's female name and said she instead of he. And second! He was the one who first stuck up for Wolfe when he would get bullied ABOUT HIS SEXUALITY! Like come on! So I once again broke up with him. So that night he had the balls to text me saying the following:

-"He was going to kill himself"
-"He would tell everyone about personal stuff"
-"He was the one who got hurt the most last time we broke up"
-"I was lying by saying I love him"

And so on and so forth. So if we skip a few days, we now end up in PE class. We where playing basketball and I was already wanting to punch everyone that made eye contact with me. Me Wolfe and M where on the same team and he over heard us talking about my cousin who recently passed while on a tour over in Afghanistan. He had taught me how to play basketball and that's why I love it so much. And M had the guts to say, "You aren't playing right! I don't care that your cousin taught you or whatever, but we aren't playing by stupid cousin rules. We are playing by the right rules. And it's not my fault he died, so stop sulking about it!" That same day he called me a "bitchy slut" and a "ugly slutty hoe".

If you think what he did already was bad enough, don't read beyond this point. We are coming up to Pride Month. And you can imagine what M did next.

As pride month rolled around, me and Wolfe where so exited! Until M opened his mouth to me. He told me over and over again, "you and your faggot friend need to stop saying you are apart of the community" and "you do know your tranny friend is lying to you right? About her sexuality that is". He also would tell me to "just pick a gender" or "Bisexuality isn't real".

So yeah. That happened. I'm sorry if I bored you, or you just didn't care but I just needed to get this off my chest. You guys are amazing and I love you guys. For anyone who reads this, you are amazing. And I promise I will try and get a chapter out to you guys. But as you can see, it's been hard. So thank you for sticking with me and for "enjoying" this rollercoaster of a ride with me.

Peace and chicken grease ✌️
CyberWolf Out! \m/
*feeds you all cupcakes*