freestyle poems and ballads

Drowning

Drowning

I am sinking deep in the water.

It screaming out, "I caught her."

My father again, "No, not her."

But that girl, I've forgot her.

Drowning alone in utter darkness,

Surender oh, so heartless.

My fear and hurt like a harness.

No thoughts of love as I tarnish.

The hurt I cause is unbearable.

Yet the pain they feel is believable.

I am the monster myself, accountable.

I’ve hurt them all, undoubtable.

I feel no shame, eyes filled with tears.

My life grows smaller and the end comes near.

But as I sink even deeper my head becomes frazzled.

I let myself go, just leave me dazzled.

My life has been filled with agony.

I never felt much love, actually.

Or maybe I have, blind to it anxiously.

The fear comes easily, the hurt so naturally.

The signs are so clear,

With a little help, I won’t live in fear.

I open my mouth, ready to shout,

But anxiety overwhelms me, a tear rolls out

The pressure released, the pain gone too.

I have drowned, but I’ll see you soon.

For the water is my thoughts, the air is truth.

I wish this to end, give me back my youth.

I then realize that I will drown again.

The truth untouchable like sin.

I must remain pure, I must contain.

My father looks to me, “I see no pain?”

But I feel that pain within me.

These lies, these thoughts, it’s just pure agony.

Although you will never see the truth,

A thick persona on me.

I am not okay, I am not alright.

I cry alone each and every night.

You will see soon daddy, just hold on tight.

Still, your little sweetheart will drown again tonight.