love me.

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by distressedatbest

by distressedatbest

I turn around the corner and walk down the hall
Your face appears like a leaf in the wind
Blowing by quickly, no time to stop and grin
You make me feel oh, so small

I get so anxious, so nervous,
My eyes fill with tears.
I thought I'd be over this,
After all, it's been years.

It feels like everyone is staring,
Burning holes in my soul.
Nobody's caring, but my heart is still tearing.
The rush fills inside me, taking a toll.

I see you and my thoughts are terrible.
"Worthless, Ugly, Incapable"
Never said, yet I feel them within
These perceptions so present, I must give in.

It is not your fault though, only mine
I know you loved me, you said I'd be fine.
You were always there, supportive as ever.
Never the slightest bit doubtful, no never.

My brain is so scrambled,
I hear but don't listen.
This problem must be handled,
Because for you it's give and give with no end to your mission.

I love you, I need you, I miss what we had
I depend on you, I rely on you, I crave your attention
It hurts me so bad, it makes you so mad,
I'm being held in eternal suspension.